Weep!

Oct 23, 2008 21:27

I don't usually post my woes but I can't beleive what my Mother just said to me!!!

She sold her house a few months ago and has moved into my flat with me until she finds a new house. I bought my flat 3 years ago, she helped with a substantial deposit. The cost of living is so high here and it doesn't  help that I have an expensive journey into London for work each day and have a couple of credit cards that I am slowly paying off as well as so many other things I have to pay for.

The flat is great, I completely redecorated, put new flooring down, replaced the bathroom, kitchen etc and bought new bedrooom furniture. But I couldn't afford brand new furniture for all of the living area, so I have second hand sofa's and curtains but did buy a dining table and chairs, new bookshelves and stacking coffee tables. I haven't found any pictures I like to hang on the walls yet - I am extremely fussy with ornaments and the like.

Anyhow, I think I made the wrong choice of carpet, it's a wheat colour which looked fantastic at first but of course gets gruibby very quickly expecially near the doorways.

She is feeling a little unwell and grumpy today but that doesn't excuse the comment she made just now. I was saying I really need a new sofa as I was getting a shoulder ache from lying on it. She says ' you need everything, I'm living like a tramp!'

Now maybe I'm a bit sensitive after having a week of abcess to a tooth and a dentist who messed up my appointment to have an extraction. But if someone is just making ends meet financially and you know that would you make that sort of comment? It's left me feeling like shit. I said to her that 'what she said was actually quite hurtful because she knows I don't have the money just now to buy new furniture'. Her response was something like ' what's up with you, don't be stupid, why are you so sensitive'.

She doesn't often say things like this, and I love her to bits but what a bitch of a thing to say!!? Cow!

I'll probably forgive her very soon but just now I feel like I'm never going to speak to her again! I just needed to vent somewhere just at this particular moment in time because she made me feel inadequate for no good reason really.
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