Thoughts
I have been thinking way too much recently so I thought I would try and purge some of it out here.
Yesterday night I cut my hair again. There isn't much significant in that itself, but I am living as a college student again, and that brought to mind some good memories from years ago. My woman would cut my hair every 2 weeks, which happened to be every time we were in Eau Claire. It was a very sensual thing, I would sit and relax while she would be in contact with me. Leaning into me, sitting on my lap while looking to make sure that she didn't miss any. It was our time, we owned it, it was knowing eachother intimately without being overtly sexual.
Having those good memories makes me regret throwing some of the pictures I had out. I threw most of the ones from the "really happy or good" times away in my bitter single stage.
These thoughts developed into "a list" of things that would be nice to have in "the one" so here it goes.
1. Be able to cut my hair and relax me with nothing but her touch.
2. Be alright with coming home randomly with flowers and gifts instead of observing the "hallmark" holidays.
3. Be able to sleep at night without me there when I am working. Basically have faith that I will come home and if I don't I died honorably, for a purpose and without fear myself.
4. not caring who is the bread winner... (I would be all for being "Mr. Mom")
5. Have similar religious beliefs.
6. Understand that I can't work an office job or a 9 to 5 job... I am not built or wired that way...
7. Accept the fact that there will always be a gun in the house, but know that it will be locked up TIGHTLY.
8. Not have a problem with me going to the gun range. It is a medative expirience for me. There is a rhythm to the way I shoot. When I am shooting there is nothing else in the world but the trigger, breathing, and the target.
9. Be a DRIVER... Those of you who have ridden with me know what that means.
10. Want kids.
11. Be a pc not a mac person ;) (just kidding on this one)
12. Be able to sit through movies like big fish and not think any less of me for crying...
13. Be strong, stand up to me and tell me what you want. (I don't play games and I am pretty dense when it comes to hints).
14. I am okay with moods and emotions on your part, so that said be okay with me crashing on the couch and just needing to be held when I have had a BAD (like the bridge accident whe I was doing cpr for 45 min) day.
15. No smoking... I will take the appropriate action if I see signs of fire like smoke (right VERATA and REN_TZU ;) I think you exprienced some of the balcony fire controll techniques I use)
16. I won't type this one... Well okay, have a chest bigger than mine...
17. Be the right height ( so I don't have to reach to kiss them on the lips)
Well it's officially EARLY now. Trabes I hope your phone call went well. I am sure that I am missing some, but eh... So be it. More of me wether you wanted to hear it or not.
Lipps
Yesterday night I cut my hair again. There isn't much significant in that itself, but I am living as a college student again, and that brought to mind some good memories from years ago. My woman would cut my hair every 2 weeks, which happened to be every time we were in Eau Claire. It was a very sensual thing, I would sit and relax while she would be in contact with me. Leaning into me, sitting on my lap while looking to make sure that she didn't miss any. It was our time, we owned it, it was knowing eachother intimately without being overtly sexual.
Having those good memories makes me regret throwing some of the pictures I had out. I threw most of the ones from the "really happy or good" times away in my bitter single stage.
These thoughts developed into "a list" of things that would be nice to have in "the one" so here it goes.
1. Be able to cut my hair and relax me with nothing but her touch.
2. Be alright with coming home randomly with flowers and gifts instead of observing the "hallmark" holidays.
3. Be able to sleep at night without me there when I am working. Basically have faith that I will come home and if I don't I died honorably, for a purpose and without fear myself.
4. not caring who is the bread winner... (I would be all for being "Mr. Mom")
5. Have similar religious beliefs.
6. Understand that I can't work an office job or a 9 to 5 job... I am not built or wired that way...
7. Accept the fact that there will always be a gun in the house, but know that it will be locked up TIGHTLY.
8. Not have a problem with me going to the gun range. It is a medative expirience for me. There is a rhythm to the way I shoot. When I am shooting there is nothing else in the world but the trigger, breathing, and the target.
9. Be a DRIVER... Those of you who have ridden with me know what that means.
10. Want kids.
11. Be a pc not a mac person ;) (just kidding on this one)
12. Be able to sit through movies like big fish and not think any less of me for crying...
13. Be strong, stand up to me and tell me what you want. (I don't play games and I am pretty dense when it comes to hints).
14. I am okay with moods and emotions on your part, so that said be okay with me crashing on the couch and just needing to be held when I have had a BAD (like the bridge accident whe I was doing cpr for 45 min) day.
15. No smoking... I will take the appropriate action if I see signs of fire like smoke (right VERATA and REN_TZU ;) I think you exprienced some of the balcony fire controll techniques I use)
16. I won't type this one... Well okay, have a chest bigger than mine...
17. Be the right height ( so I don't have to reach to kiss them on the lips)
Well it's officially EARLY now. Trabes I hope your phone call went well. I am sure that I am missing some, but eh... So be it. More of me wether you wanted to hear it or not.
Lipps