"waiting for Sunday to drown"
I'm extremely hungover. still. at 6:30. haha oy. what a night though - amazing! So many shots done with Hayley and Marc...yikes! But everyone is so wonderful and that warmed me.
As Meagan has stated in a recent post, these winter blahs are hitting me somethin fierce (and not "fierce" in that good way Tyra uses). I really think that everyone is just a little crazier at this time of year. The fact that February is when the highest rate of suicides occurs means something people. Why do we live in this frozen country?! I was saying the other day, if i was a settler way back in the day, I would've gotten through the first winter and then be like 'alright, that was shitty, don't want to put up with that every year, let's go further south', but no...maybe they thought it was some freak incident and that winter was some big fluke. Alls I know is I'm hightailing it asap....I hope.
This theory of increased winter insanity proved itself yesterday at work. i worked from open til close and I swear, I see crazy people all the time (the perks of working at a downtown LCBO) but everyone was insane to the nth degree yesterday. Everyone was telling me their problems and making extremely bitter, sometimes offensive comments. Do I have therapist written on my forehead? I guess I'm kind of like a bartender...maybe...and since our store isn't busy they feel they can just keep me there talking to them.
Here are some choice quotes of the day:
Bitter woman: "When I come back in my next reincarnation, I want to come back as a man so I can sit on my ass and do nothing all day."
(me laughing)
"No I'm serious. I'm a bank manager and yet I'm the one who has to do all this other shit while he sits around and does nothing."
(increasingly nervous laughter) "Have a nice day!"
"Don't ever get married."
Grumpy man complaining about the price hike on liquor (mostly due to the new bottle deposits) : "These politicians, they just want money to line their pockets"
(me nodding and saying 'mmhmm' a lot)
"Politicians are like baby's diapers: they need to be changed often and for the same reason"
(me laughing, but he didn't look impressed, or like he was joking)
"Politicians are the rejects of society. I haven't voted for 20 years and I don't plan on doing so ever again."
me: "have a nice day!"
him: "HA! I don't think so. Not in this goddamn country."
Those were my favourites. But there were many more, believe me. And everyone was making in depth conversation about the weather. I've heard it 50 times today, go away! haha so mean, but seriously....I'm standing in front of a huuuge window.
My B&D drivers make me happy though. They're all pretty hilarious. There's one guy who hardly talks to me cause he just seems like he despises waking up in the morning and doing his job. But then he'll come out with something funny every once and a while. THere's another one I have a little crush on but he's so old! well I don't know about so old, but he has a 16 yr old daughter, and I would say he's probably in his early 40's maybe...he's an English major (which is a little troubling to me, doesn't make me feel very confident about my future...haha) and he talks to me about Tom Waits. And his hair is all salt and pepper in that sexy George Clooney way. Maybe I should go for an older man (not this one...but I mean in general haha). And then there's another one I have a crush on and i go pink like every time he comes in and I make the dumbest conversation. In my boredom i was trying to imagine what it would be like if I was to go on a date with him...but I just couldn't...I think with these crushes it's good to just keep them at a distance...sometimes you need an innocent crush to get you through a day full of greasy drunk men hitting on you.
I don't like this rising bitterness. I'm so sick of feeling like this. I know it's only been a couple of weeks, but I hate that I can't just get over it immediately. I'm stronger than this! So many bad feelings, and the insecure ones are the worst. I think those are the ones that are lingering and it feels terrible...I didn't build my confidence up just to have it obliterated by some bandana-wearing, obnoxious, self-involved, self-important, egotistical, alcoholic who writes a joke column for a joke paper with the worst writers on the planet. I know I'm better than him, I know I'm better than her, and I know that I'm worth more. And yet....I feel like I do. bah! It goes up and down. I'm sure today is just a lethal combination of the winter blahs and the hangover blahs. blahdy blah blah blah haha.
I have to find a mennonite recipe and write 2-3 pages on it and then make it for class on Tuesday. That is what my midterm consists of for my 'mennonites as a sociological community' class. Any suggestions? Sometimes the easy marks are the ones you don't get cause you can't be bothered with them.
At least the new issue of SoMM makes me happy. And Meagan and I noticed someone we didn't know reading it at the Bond last night...that feels so so good.
Who's going to see the Vagina Monologues with me on V-Day? I can't wait to vag it up with the girls I loooove!
whoa long intense post. I swear my next one will be lighter...something tv related a la Meagan. Also: I like this lj renaissance!
As Meagan has stated in a recent post, these winter blahs are hitting me somethin fierce (and not "fierce" in that good way Tyra uses). I really think that everyone is just a little crazier at this time of year. The fact that February is when the highest rate of suicides occurs means something people. Why do we live in this frozen country?! I was saying the other day, if i was a settler way back in the day, I would've gotten through the first winter and then be like 'alright, that was shitty, don't want to put up with that every year, let's go further south', but no...maybe they thought it was some freak incident and that winter was some big fluke. Alls I know is I'm hightailing it asap....I hope.
This theory of increased winter insanity proved itself yesterday at work. i worked from open til close and I swear, I see crazy people all the time (the perks of working at a downtown LCBO) but everyone was insane to the nth degree yesterday. Everyone was telling me their problems and making extremely bitter, sometimes offensive comments. Do I have therapist written on my forehead? I guess I'm kind of like a bartender...maybe...and since our store isn't busy they feel they can just keep me there talking to them.
Here are some choice quotes of the day:
Bitter woman: "When I come back in my next reincarnation, I want to come back as a man so I can sit on my ass and do nothing all day."
(me laughing)
"No I'm serious. I'm a bank manager and yet I'm the one who has to do all this other shit while he sits around and does nothing."
(increasingly nervous laughter) "Have a nice day!"
"Don't ever get married."
Grumpy man complaining about the price hike on liquor (mostly due to the new bottle deposits) : "These politicians, they just want money to line their pockets"
(me nodding and saying 'mmhmm' a lot)
"Politicians are like baby's diapers: they need to be changed often and for the same reason"
(me laughing, but he didn't look impressed, or like he was joking)
"Politicians are the rejects of society. I haven't voted for 20 years and I don't plan on doing so ever again."
me: "have a nice day!"
him: "HA! I don't think so. Not in this goddamn country."
Those were my favourites. But there were many more, believe me. And everyone was making in depth conversation about the weather. I've heard it 50 times today, go away! haha so mean, but seriously....I'm standing in front of a huuuge window.
My B&D drivers make me happy though. They're all pretty hilarious. There's one guy who hardly talks to me cause he just seems like he despises waking up in the morning and doing his job. But then he'll come out with something funny every once and a while. THere's another one I have a little crush on but he's so old! well I don't know about so old, but he has a 16 yr old daughter, and I would say he's probably in his early 40's maybe...he's an English major (which is a little troubling to me, doesn't make me feel very confident about my future...haha) and he talks to me about Tom Waits. And his hair is all salt and pepper in that sexy George Clooney way. Maybe I should go for an older man (not this one...but I mean in general haha). And then there's another one I have a crush on and i go pink like every time he comes in and I make the dumbest conversation. In my boredom i was trying to imagine what it would be like if I was to go on a date with him...but I just couldn't...I think with these crushes it's good to just keep them at a distance...sometimes you need an innocent crush to get you through a day full of greasy drunk men hitting on you.
I don't like this rising bitterness. I'm so sick of feeling like this. I know it's only been a couple of weeks, but I hate that I can't just get over it immediately. I'm stronger than this! So many bad feelings, and the insecure ones are the worst. I think those are the ones that are lingering and it feels terrible...I didn't build my confidence up just to have it obliterated by some bandana-wearing, obnoxious, self-involved, self-important, egotistical, alcoholic who writes a joke column for a joke paper with the worst writers on the planet. I know I'm better than him, I know I'm better than her, and I know that I'm worth more. And yet....I feel like I do. bah! It goes up and down. I'm sure today is just a lethal combination of the winter blahs and the hangover blahs. blahdy blah blah blah haha.
I have to find a mennonite recipe and write 2-3 pages on it and then make it for class on Tuesday. That is what my midterm consists of for my 'mennonites as a sociological community' class. Any suggestions? Sometimes the easy marks are the ones you don't get cause you can't be bothered with them.
At least the new issue of SoMM makes me happy. And Meagan and I noticed someone we didn't know reading it at the Bond last night...that feels so so good.
Who's going to see the Vagina Monologues with me on V-Day? I can't wait to vag it up with the girls I loooove!
whoa long intense post. I swear my next one will be lighter...something tv related a la Meagan. Also: I like this lj renaissance!