GIBLETS DAY PLUS
Well...I am do for an update. My Granddaddy passed away, obviously. This was a bit before Thankstaking. I left for Turkey Time on Tuesday. I found out while I was at my brother's that I was cast in the MAINSTAGE!!! I get to work in the Hatlen for the first time! YAYers. I spent almost all day with my brother and sister. Then the next day I got to see my niecey-and-nephew-poos out at the reservation. It was weird and sad. The trampoline and part of the house and the trees were burnt. We could see where Juan's parents house AND his sister's house burned down. Also, the Mushroom Farm where we grew up and played burned down. So sad.
Then we went back to my house and everyone came over. Somehow it didn't hit me that this would be the first Gobble without Pat and Ethan's mommy. *Sigh*. I wish someone would find the cure to cancer so so so so so so so so bad. I was really happy that Pat and Ethan came and brought Pops too. He is so sad and I can see that. I think it was good for him to see Pat and Ethan laughing and enjoying themselves and watching the game and we all joked around in the living room being silly. Everybody needed that.
My brother and his fiance are seperating. Life is something, isn't it?
So then the next day we were off to drive all day long up north. Can we say hectic and long hours in the car with my parents? We caravaned with my cousins. We had to make alot of pee stops cause my great Uncle and Auntie were with us. Plus PooPoo. He's such a lil cutie love. We got there at 8ish or something at night and we were at my Auntie's house. We went to see a movie for cheering up times. We saw This Christmas which was very good. Some of my family that is not so sober came. Then left during the movie after a small fight with each other. *sigh*.
Then we went home and went to sleep in my Aunties amazing WALK IN CLOSET THAT IS A FULL SIZED BEDROOM!!! My dream. Awesome. Family was everywhere. We got up super early to drive up to My Auntie's house over by my grandmamma. We got there and we were in rush mode. My Auntie is a super pack rat and it was like a flashback to my childhood. I missed my cousin so so so so so much. We have that kind of connection where as soon as we get back together we are attached at the hip and we never fight. I love her so much and I am SO proud of her for going to adult school and graduating and getting an internship where they love her. She is so beautiful and wonderful. We don't see each other enough. I also got to see my Cousin who has been on and off crack for a while. She was in some programs, but she is out because she recently had her third baby. He has six fingers on each hand!!!! He is absolutely calm and beautiful. And My lil J's are growing up. Jacari is my baby. I feel such an attachment to him and he didn't want me to leave him. He was so upset. I have to see them more. It hurts to leave them in what I know is a precarious situation.
I remembered how much it sucks to have to watch all of your belongings so you leave with what you came with. My Granddaddy's funeral was in a little church in a building. He asked to be cremated so he wasn't present. I read a poem. I broke down before I even started. Then I really lost it when my Great Uncle William said he didn't want to cry so he didn't want to talk and he started to cry. My Granddaddy was the youngest.
It REALLY pisses me off when SOME PEOPLE get up and try to make my Granddaddy's service into an evangelist show. I DON'T WANT TO BE SAVED!!! I WANT MY GRANDDADDY!! I WANT TO CRY IN A BALL ON THE FLOOR!!!! SHUT UUUUUUUUUPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!! It took everything out of me, to stay silent and not throw something. I wanted to pick up the podium and throw it. My Cousin Dee knew. I could feel her watching me.
My Daddy. My Daddy. He has lost weight. I know he's sad. He kept saying. My Daddy, My Daddy, My Father. I could hear him. My mom was at home reliving her own Dad's death. She doesn't go to ceremonies anymore.
I got to see my Grandmamma. Unfortunately by the end of the weekend she left without even hugging me on the last day.
I GOT TO SEE MY BROTHER AND MY NEPHEW!!!! He's so tall and confident and smart. I also met my brother's new gf. I like her so far. Also, she works at Gucci and is hooking up the 50% discount on top of the 40% sale. She is alright. I have to see how it all pans out. Me and my brother are really close and I want her to be a cool person. Naddamean?
My cousins. I miss them. I miss them alot. I...am...indescribable right now. Till laters I will expand my thoughts.
**Twinkling
Then we went back to my house and everyone came over. Somehow it didn't hit me that this would be the first Gobble without Pat and Ethan's mommy. *Sigh*. I wish someone would find the cure to cancer so so so so so so so so bad. I was really happy that Pat and Ethan came and brought Pops too. He is so sad and I can see that. I think it was good for him to see Pat and Ethan laughing and enjoying themselves and watching the game and we all joked around in the living room being silly. Everybody needed that.
My brother and his fiance are seperating. Life is something, isn't it?
So then the next day we were off to drive all day long up north. Can we say hectic and long hours in the car with my parents? We caravaned with my cousins. We had to make alot of pee stops cause my great Uncle and Auntie were with us. Plus PooPoo. He's such a lil cutie love. We got there at 8ish or something at night and we were at my Auntie's house. We went to see a movie for cheering up times. We saw This Christmas which was very good. Some of my family that is not so sober came. Then left during the movie after a small fight with each other. *sigh*.
Then we went home and went to sleep in my Aunties amazing WALK IN CLOSET THAT IS A FULL SIZED BEDROOM!!! My dream. Awesome. Family was everywhere. We got up super early to drive up to My Auntie's house over by my grandmamma. We got there and we were in rush mode. My Auntie is a super pack rat and it was like a flashback to my childhood. I missed my cousin so so so so so much. We have that kind of connection where as soon as we get back together we are attached at the hip and we never fight. I love her so much and I am SO proud of her for going to adult school and graduating and getting an internship where they love her. She is so beautiful and wonderful. We don't see each other enough. I also got to see my Cousin who has been on and off crack for a while. She was in some programs, but she is out because she recently had her third baby. He has six fingers on each hand!!!! He is absolutely calm and beautiful. And My lil J's are growing up. Jacari is my baby. I feel such an attachment to him and he didn't want me to leave him. He was so upset. I have to see them more. It hurts to leave them in what I know is a precarious situation.
I remembered how much it sucks to have to watch all of your belongings so you leave with what you came with. My Granddaddy's funeral was in a little church in a building. He asked to be cremated so he wasn't present. I read a poem. I broke down before I even started. Then I really lost it when my Great Uncle William said he didn't want to cry so he didn't want to talk and he started to cry. My Granddaddy was the youngest.
It REALLY pisses me off when SOME PEOPLE get up and try to make my Granddaddy's service into an evangelist show. I DON'T WANT TO BE SAVED!!! I WANT MY GRANDDADDY!! I WANT TO CRY IN A BALL ON THE FLOOR!!!! SHUT UUUUUUUUUPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!! It took everything out of me, to stay silent and not throw something. I wanted to pick up the podium and throw it. My Cousin Dee knew. I could feel her watching me.
My Daddy. My Daddy. He has lost weight. I know he's sad. He kept saying. My Daddy, My Daddy, My Father. I could hear him. My mom was at home reliving her own Dad's death. She doesn't go to ceremonies anymore.
I got to see my Grandmamma. Unfortunately by the end of the weekend she left without even hugging me on the last day.
I GOT TO SEE MY BROTHER AND MY NEPHEW!!!! He's so tall and confident and smart. I also met my brother's new gf. I like her so far. Also, she works at Gucci and is hooking up the 50% discount on top of the 40% sale. She is alright. I have to see how it all pans out. Me and my brother are really close and I want her to be a cool person. Naddamean?
My cousins. I miss them. I miss them alot. I...am...indescribable right now. Till laters I will expand my thoughts.
**Twinkling