FAT not PHAT

[lipgl0ssity]

Tonight, my mom is giving me the you are fat and unhealthy and ugly speech. This is good timing as I have been trying to get on track and I am currently working out all the time and constantly contemplating not eating. I also am getting ready to audition for grad school, so she told me I am too fat and no one will see my talent just my fat self. This is supposed to get me to work out, it may get me to accept the pull of anorexia. Bad bad bad timing. I am also glad that this conversation started off with me telling her about the really cool experience I just had so she felt that she should instead kill the self esteem I had just been building and the motivation and drive I was busy cultivating. Now I just feel sad and ugly.

Going to go work out now and not eat anything.

**Twinkling