ONE OF THE WORST DAYS
Today so far has been one of the most awkward days of my life. I had a breakdown as all the stress of time + some good ol fashioned humiliation and I just began to sob without control. I locked myself in a rehearsal room and cried really ridiculously for an hour. Then I had class, I looked like crap, and suprise, I couldn't stop crying. So I continued to cry while people asked me what was wrong and hugged me and asked me if I wanted to talk, which of course was the last thing I wanted. I couldn't talk anyway for crying. I just kept crying. During the class I stopped crying, and started again by the end. I have no control over anything. I am a failure and a loser. I wish I hadn't woke up today. I am a dissappointment.
I am really embarrassed and angry with myself. I cannot believe I cried all that time and in front of everyone. I can't believe I am this weak. I hate myself right now.
There is more day to go. I wish there wasn't. I am not done till 12.
I am really embarrassed and angry with myself. I cannot believe I cried all that time and in front of everyone. I can't believe I am this weak. I hate myself right now.
There is more day to go. I wish there wasn't. I am not done till 12.