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Will someone please tell how to not have my whole world feel like it's caving in when Mosiah and I are having a disagreement? While I am 33 I have never had a boyfriend before and it's hard to describe how awful it is. I prayed before I talked to him and I prayed after and even still...awful.
Mosiah is busy, really busy. He leaves for work at 8:00pm and generally gets home around 11:00 am. He then goes home to sleep, on a good day. He sleeps for a few hours and is out the door again around 4:00 pm to go to School. Repeat M-F he is off work Wed. night and Saturday night and off school Saturday and Sunday. This means that from around noon on Saturday to 10:00pm on Sunday he is at home. He sleeps, studies, eats (he doesn't do much of this during the week) and does laundry (by hand).
We talk when he is in taxis, on a ten minute break from work, and on really good days between school and work. For the past three weekends he has not called on his days off.
My schedule is not NEARLY as rigorous. I work from 9-5 M-F. This leaves me plenty of time to think about him and miss him and hope that the phone rings. I've been wishing for time to talk to him when a radio is not blaring in the background, or when he has not snuck outside for a quick 5 minute conversation before his supervisor gets back. Since getting back from Jamaica my desire to be with him is even stronger.
I've been attempting to combat this feeling with much prayer and submission to the Lord but still I have been longing to talk to him on his days off. The thing is he purchased a phone line to call me for free. I don't have one to call him, so I wait and pray a lot.
Tonight I texted him and asked him if he could call me before he went to work and he did...while he was in a taxi. So I mentioned my wish to talk to him on his days off. Maybe I came off as accusatory. I know I sounded disappointed when I realized he was in a taxi. He became defensive and snippy. I curled up in a little ball and felt like a jerk. We hung up not long after that. I shut down in the face of hostility.
He said he'd call back later. I said I loved him and I meant it and not in a manipulative way.
I don't know how to be supportive AND honest. He needs both. There is this little voice in my head that says "just be positive with him till he gets here and then you can work it all out." , but I'm not into making bombs.
Sometimes I think I should talk to a military wife.
This is me asking for your opinion. I don’t know how to do this.
Mosiah is busy, really busy. He leaves for work at 8:00pm and generally gets home around 11:00 am. He then goes home to sleep, on a good day. He sleeps for a few hours and is out the door again around 4:00 pm to go to School. Repeat M-F he is off work Wed. night and Saturday night and off school Saturday and Sunday. This means that from around noon on Saturday to 10:00pm on Sunday he is at home. He sleeps, studies, eats (he doesn't do much of this during the week) and does laundry (by hand).
We talk when he is in taxis, on a ten minute break from work, and on really good days between school and work. For the past three weekends he has not called on his days off.
My schedule is not NEARLY as rigorous. I work from 9-5 M-F. This leaves me plenty of time to think about him and miss him and hope that the phone rings. I've been wishing for time to talk to him when a radio is not blaring in the background, or when he has not snuck outside for a quick 5 minute conversation before his supervisor gets back. Since getting back from Jamaica my desire to be with him is even stronger.
I've been attempting to combat this feeling with much prayer and submission to the Lord but still I have been longing to talk to him on his days off. The thing is he purchased a phone line to call me for free. I don't have one to call him, so I wait and pray a lot.
Tonight I texted him and asked him if he could call me before he went to work and he did...while he was in a taxi. So I mentioned my wish to talk to him on his days off. Maybe I came off as accusatory. I know I sounded disappointed when I realized he was in a taxi. He became defensive and snippy. I curled up in a little ball and felt like a jerk. We hung up not long after that. I shut down in the face of hostility.
He said he'd call back later. I said I loved him and I meant it and not in a manipulative way.
I don't know how to be supportive AND honest. He needs both. There is this little voice in my head that says "just be positive with him till he gets here and then you can work it all out." , but I'm not into making bombs.
Sometimes I think I should talk to a military wife.
This is me asking for your opinion. I don’t know how to do this.