frustration i suppose
i dont know how to do it, pretend like the last 7 months of my life never existed. its just too hard. but i guess i have to because she means the world to me... but still i can't pretend to be happy about it, i dont think its physically possible.
i feel like im a shell. this year has been so weird. freedom yet restrictions. my mom and her issues. my dad and his self pity. tryiing to figure out how to appease both of them. they are being so frustrating about this overnite thing. they want me to meet all these teachers... honestly i have the next 4 years to meet teachers. for once i dont wanna be the organized and well together girl these stupid teachers meet in the interviews... cause thats not really me. its my parents acting through me. its so frustrating.
i feel like im a shell. this year has been so weird. freedom yet restrictions. my mom and her issues. my dad and his self pity. tryiing to figure out how to appease both of them. they are being so frustrating about this overnite thing. they want me to meet all these teachers... honestly i have the next 4 years to meet teachers. for once i dont wanna be the organized and well together girl these stupid teachers meet in the interviews... cause thats not really me. its my parents acting through me. its so frustrating.