Life... Decisions... Fear and Approval
Sometimes in life you got to make hard decisions.
Decisions you neither like, nor know if they are right.
Some decisions are life-changing.
Some decisions give you a neverending pain.
Sure there are a few decisions that make you happy, but the real hard ones are those where you know in advance that they will hurt, that they will change your life and that they will rip a deep big hole into your heart
I had a few of those in my life already.
But those decisions that where the hardest in my life, turned out at last to be the right ones. That doesnt mean that it doesnt bother me any more, that it doesnt hurt any more, but at least i have the salvation that they made someone others life better.
The easiest way is to try not to think about it, but i just get remembered so often.
Everytime i see something it remembers me to one of those persons, i'am close to tears and in the meanwhile there are SO many things that remember me to so many persons i wonder that i can even have one hour of not thinking about one of them.
To all those i love and care for..
To all those who turned their back on me...
To all those who have a better life since not sharing it with me any more...
I only wish you the very best. I miss you.
(though still glad noone of them will read this...)
Decisions you neither like, nor know if they are right.
Some decisions are life-changing.
Some decisions give you a neverending pain.
Sure there are a few decisions that make you happy, but the real hard ones are those where you know in advance that they will hurt, that they will change your life and that they will rip a deep big hole into your heart
I had a few of those in my life already.
But those decisions that where the hardest in my life, turned out at last to be the right ones. That doesnt mean that it doesnt bother me any more, that it doesnt hurt any more, but at least i have the salvation that they made someone others life better.
The easiest way is to try not to think about it, but i just get remembered so often.
Everytime i see something it remembers me to one of those persons, i'am close to tears and in the meanwhile there are SO many things that remember me to so many persons i wonder that i can even have one hour of not thinking about one of them.
To all those i love and care for..
To all those who turned their back on me...
To all those who have a better life since not sharing it with me any more...
I only wish you the very best. I miss you.
(though still glad noone of them will read this...)