Mar 02, 2006 20:45
You know, the Idaho trip realy got me going. I really got to thinking how much I really do love Jazz music....even though I havent been showing it at all lately, I mean the music is great, sometimes you just want to listen to the music without words, and the beautiful sounds, and so Jazz is perfect for that. I really love it, I really do.....It also made me realise how much I really dont want to leave highschool, the fun times, in Jazz and concert, it was like family. I sure as hell dont want to leave that. I am really scared, because I have to go out there now, and prove myself in that big scary world? Thats a thought to make me want to pee myself, its so scary.
I feel really weired lately....I cant even describe it, I want to hold on to time forever, but it just seems to be slipping through my fingers. I dont want to leave the familiarity and closeness of highschool, I really dont.
I am going to go and get my damn stereo fixed, and go out and buy all of Benny Greens cds, and others, and listen to Jazz as well as my other music interests.
This is the plan.