stressed
i'm stressed, stressed, so mutherfucken stressed. i have no support at home, they only stress me more. i tell them, "do this", instead they do nothing. i left them all shitty notes around the house. how it hurts my feelings, disrespects me and adds more stress to me when they dont do what ive asked. my husband stresses me. he called at 2:51 to tell me he didnt have a ride home. um, ok....and youre just now getting around to finding a ride, and its somehow my problem now. of course, normally i wouldnt mind, but jees, figure some shit out on your own. AND, ive sent him two emails today about being stressed and can i quit my job (not literally). he never replied. i know he read them, but i got no response. oh, but when i get his stressful emails i always respond and try to cheer him up. like i said, i get no support. my business needs money, our bank returned our payroll withdrawl TWICE. im stressed. yesterday was my birthday and i ended up taking my parents to dinner, huh? wha?? how'd that happen? yeah, and CHRISTOPHER is the one that invited them to dinner, than he didnt even want to go. i didnt want to go, i was so tired, but HE invited them. and when i told him he had to go, cuz he initiated the invitation, hes all, well they've done so much for us, for our wedding reception. i told him, ok, than, so you invite them out just for dinner, not for dinner on MY birthday, when i just want to smoke a bowl and go to bed. anyway. if you didnt know, i'm stressed. we are supposed to have a yard sale, but on MY terms, next weekend. but my husband and my stepdad want me and my mon to have one tomorrow. im not mentally prepared for that, i'm still recovering from our reception last weekend. my husband's email -->I'm thinking we should have a garage sale tomorrow so that we can have some$$$ what do you think?? he wont even be home tomorrow, hes working, so i dont know what part of WE should have a garage sale. anyway, im outta here. i have so much work to do. and for some reason, i cant quite finish my tasks. i know im probably ADD. always have been, but that didnt diagnose that shit when i was a kid. BYE