[Re]Introduction
My name is Jackie and I think it's fair to say devoting a paragraph, two, or seven to describing a person is a little ridiculous and unpractical--particularly if it can actually be done because if that's the case, they are either lying to themselves or there is a significant lack of complexity that really ought not to exist in anybody, any age.
Therefore that's all I have to really offer here--a name and a number, perhaps. I'm seventeen for now and I don't feel as young as I am--but I recognize that I am and I figure that's a start. Anything more than just that, more than surface character details that I can show through pictures of what I watch and read and listen to, takes me quite a bit to understand myself and therefore I doubt I'll do that great a job explaining it in those few paragraphs aforementioned.
So instead I'll leave it at that--not because a name clearly defines me and thus saying it at all "says enough." I'm not arrogant enough to believe my name has any real definition to human nature and personality nor arrogant enough to believe it can be used as anything more than just a name. But because there is complexity in simplicity and simplicity in complexity and its sort of a redundant, rather constant cycle in life--much like the last three paragraphs have been in saying nothing but really saying something about who I am. I figure if that's not a good representation of the life I live and the life every person lives, then what is?
I wrote that a chunk of time ago, earlier this summer, in replace of a survey-type thing on my Myspace page. Though its a little stand-offish (I can remember sitting in this spot having been overly cynical that day--over what, hell if I know), I think its a fair statement to make. Or at least a fair way to introduce myself here instead--I use too many words for my own good, I get too defensive and panicked too quickly when I think I've been misunderstood and I am very much aware of the fact that I miss the mark quite often. :D Or maybe that's a self-loathing, critical thing to say. But I had intended to be witty with those three paragraphs above and now, rereading it, I think I came off more as a dick. :D
So instead I think I am going to retry this right now--better day and with a much warmer disposition, I hope. My name is still Jackie and I am still seventeen years old nineteen years old and I still do feel much older physically and mentally than I really am. But I am still just as terrified for the future as kids my age are and unlike a vast majority of them, I recongize my immortality on some level. I can't see myself dying but I can see the consequences of what I do and that's saying something for a senior in high school college student, I think. :) I take the old soul title as a compliment, even if it's harder to cooperate with the masses because of it.
I intend to use this page more to display my writing and characters that I have created in collaboration with one of the most important people to me. Everything that Mandy and I have written in the past and the present and the future will hopefully make its way over here to documented and better organized--better kept too. We're not good with the organizing but hopefully this will help. :) The entries that will probably grace this page for a while will be full of graphics that I make for various things (mostly my writing). Then, of course, the occasional bitching/panicking/celebrating blog thrown in when I remember to hold onto that feeling long enough to write about it here.
So please, bare with me. :D
Therefore that's all I have to really offer here--a name and a number, perhaps. I'm seventeen for now and I don't feel as young as I am--but I recognize that I am and I figure that's a start. Anything more than just that, more than surface character details that I can show through pictures of what I watch and read and listen to, takes me quite a bit to understand myself and therefore I doubt I'll do that great a job explaining it in those few paragraphs aforementioned.
So instead I'll leave it at that--not because a name clearly defines me and thus saying it at all "says enough." I'm not arrogant enough to believe my name has any real definition to human nature and personality nor arrogant enough to believe it can be used as anything more than just a name. But because there is complexity in simplicity and simplicity in complexity and its sort of a redundant, rather constant cycle in life--much like the last three paragraphs have been in saying nothing but really saying something about who I am. I figure if that's not a good representation of the life I live and the life every person lives, then what is?
I wrote that a chunk of time ago, earlier this summer, in replace of a survey-type thing on my Myspace page. Though its a little stand-offish (I can remember sitting in this spot having been overly cynical that day--over what, hell if I know), I think its a fair statement to make. Or at least a fair way to introduce myself here instead--I use too many words for my own good, I get too defensive and panicked too quickly when I think I've been misunderstood and I am very much aware of the fact that I miss the mark quite often. :D Or maybe that's a self-loathing, critical thing to say. But I had intended to be witty with those three paragraphs above and now, rereading it, I think I came off more as a dick. :D
So instead I think I am going to retry this right now--better day and with a much warmer disposition, I hope. My name is still Jackie and I am still seventeen years old nineteen years old and I still do feel much older physically and mentally than I really am. But I am still just as terrified for the future as kids my age are and unlike a vast majority of them, I recongize my immortality on some level. I can't see myself dying but I can see the consequences of what I do and that's saying something for a senior in high school college student, I think. :) I take the old soul title as a compliment, even if it's harder to cooperate with the masses because of it.
I intend to use this page more to display my writing and characters that I have created in collaboration with one of the most important people to me. Everything that Mandy and I have written in the past and the present and the future will hopefully make its way over here to documented and better organized--better kept too. We're not good with the organizing but hopefully this will help. :) The entries that will probably grace this page for a while will be full of graphics that I make for various things (mostly my writing). Then, of course, the occasional bitching/panicking/celebrating blog thrown in when I remember to hold onto that feeling long enough to write about it here.
So please, bare with me. :D