And Yet There Were Moments

[lionblade]

It's only been three months, but it feels more like three years. At my last update, I was ecstatic that I'd finally gotten the call to go to Japan. And I was training for my impending 100 mile endurance bike tour. Things were looking up. But a lot has happened since then, and I'm just happy to be alive.

Comments

[antisaint_judis]

Firstly, it’s nice to meet you. Thank you for taking a moment to put down what’s been going on in your life, though I’m saddened it’s not good things that have been happening. I’m terribly sorry about the accident. I’m so glad you’re ok, though! Two near-death experiences and you’re still standing! That’s resilience for you :) you’ve got something to do on this earth, something to experience and see, that’s for sure. So I’m very glad that physically, you’re ok.

I totally get the emotional strain. While I’ve never been in such an intense situation, there have been incidents that have caused that kind of emotional reaction in me. It sucks. That’s all there is too it. But as you grow stronger, you will start to feel more normal. It sounds like you beat the odds once (docs saying you’d be limited by asthma) so I’m sure with some perserverence and dedication, you’ll beat them again!

[lionblade]

There's gonna be couple entries where I'm throwing a lot of exposition out there, but this is going to be the most negative by far, I think. It was so cathartic to write, even if I look at it now and criticize everything about it in my head. Such is the nature of my profession, I guess. I was feeling so down that I had to say something about it, even if I needed a bit of a nudge from a drink.

It's going to be a funny story someday. I try to laugh at it now, when people complain about their days - "Hey, at least you didn't get hit by a car!" I figure humor's probably the best way to deal with it. I still have nightmares about the crash itself every now and then, but they're far less frequent than they used to be. If the forces of the universe failed to stop my heart and couldn't kill me with a car, then I should probably kick myself in the ass and do something good with my life.

[jeffthelion]

Wow. I feel the intensity of the pain and frustration coursing through your words. So, this happened just after you got the call to go to Japan too? That's horrible luck. Your determination though to beat this misfortune is really inspiring.

How are you recovering and feeling now?