Safe to rant...
I suppose it's safe to rant here vs my OTHER social media site.
Well, it's not so much a rant as it is just an outlet of frustrations...which COULD be a rant...meh
So I've been moving about for a while. I'm wanting to settle down somewhere but I'm not sure where. The problem is, I'm single. I don't want to settle down single. I know as soon as I buy a house, that's it...I'm not moving for a WHILE. There are so many places that I would like to live, but the bottom line is...I want to share my life with someone. I came close to being able to do that and it fell from under me...well, I used a shovel...NOW, I don't know what to do. Classes are going great. I have an ok job, but I hate Indiana. I HATE it....All I want to do is make it through all of this, get my degree in Nursing and just get on with my life. I put off my career for FAR too long. If had gone the way I wanted them to, I might have been married again for nearly 8 years...but I majorly fucked that up. I'm cool with it though, just annoyed. I feel like all I do is constantly start over. This is going on the longest I've stayed ANYWHERE in the last 7 years and I'm already itching to pull up stakes and MOVE ON. Maybe it's wrong of me to settle down in one place? If it is...what a sad existence I'm going to have. It sort of pisses me off that I have this urge to just keep moving around...the wanderlust is getting stronger every year. I need someone to keep me grounded. I don't need someone to control me..just keep me focused. I'm 42 and I don't even feel like I'm CLOSE to being 42...I barely feel like I'm still in my early 30s (which isn't the case)
Now it just feels like fucking whining...I suppose it's time to stop.
You know, I'm a lovable guy. I'm quite a catch if I do say so myself...Why can't anyone see that? Or am I just fooling myself?
Who the fuck knows...
Well, it's not so much a rant as it is just an outlet of frustrations...which COULD be a rant...meh
So I've been moving about for a while. I'm wanting to settle down somewhere but I'm not sure where. The problem is, I'm single. I don't want to settle down single. I know as soon as I buy a house, that's it...I'm not moving for a WHILE. There are so many places that I would like to live, but the bottom line is...I want to share my life with someone. I came close to being able to do that and it fell from under me...well, I used a shovel...NOW, I don't know what to do. Classes are going great. I have an ok job, but I hate Indiana. I HATE it....All I want to do is make it through all of this, get my degree in Nursing and just get on with my life. I put off my career for FAR too long. If had gone the way I wanted them to, I might have been married again for nearly 8 years...but I majorly fucked that up. I'm cool with it though, just annoyed. I feel like all I do is constantly start over. This is going on the longest I've stayed ANYWHERE in the last 7 years and I'm already itching to pull up stakes and MOVE ON. Maybe it's wrong of me to settle down in one place? If it is...what a sad existence I'm going to have. It sort of pisses me off that I have this urge to just keep moving around...the wanderlust is getting stronger every year. I need someone to keep me grounded. I don't need someone to control me..just keep me focused. I'm 42 and I don't even feel like I'm CLOSE to being 42...I barely feel like I'm still in my early 30s (which isn't the case)
Now it just feels like fucking whining...I suppose it's time to stop.
You know, I'm a lovable guy. I'm quite a catch if I do say so myself...Why can't anyone see that? Or am I just fooling myself?
Who the fuck knows...