Last Open Entry!
There are lots of lessons people learn when they grow up. My lesson was to understand love and honesty. I have just left a very painful relationship where I was taken forgranted and abused. Now I'm free to love and live the way I want to. I only wanted to be part of someone's life, instead I got used... Go figgure. My relationship ended in the most painful way imaginable. I don't know all the details, but he went on a coke binge, slept with alot of other girls (while I was completely loyal and selibate), and eventually lost his mind and went back home (Across the country) to make things worse. HE was never honest with me, and I feel now that he never really loved me either. Through it though, I have found love. I know in the last year of my relationship I had done nothing wrong, so I have none of the blame on me. I never lied about anything if he'd ask.
I have a best friend who has become my sweetheart after all this mess. With all the damage that I went through being someone else's girl, I only saw my friend Daniel as someone outside. I never realized that He even cared until after the day that I was told about my ex's BS. Since then I have called Daniel my Prince because he saved me from utter nervous breakdowns and not eatting for days. Though I have been saved and I learned my lesson, I worry that my ex would never understand either of them, love and honesty. Here's the song that I dedicate to him, and I pray in one way or other he can eventually get himself together.
SAVE ME (Unwritten Law)
Had a bad day, don’t talk to me, I’m gonna ride this out
My little black heart breaks apart with your big mouth and
I’m sick of my sickness, don’t touch me you’ll get this
I’m useless, lazy, perverted and you hate me
You can’t save me
You can’t change me
Well I’m waiting for my wakeup call
And everything’s my fault
Went to the doctor and I asked her to make this stop
Got medication, a new addiction, fuckin’ thanks a lot
I had a relapse, I’m bad at rehabs, it ruins everything
So point you finger at the singer, he’s in the pharmacy
You can’t save me
You can’t change me
Well I’m waiting for my wakeup call
And everything’s my fault
You can’t save me
You can’t blame me
Well I’m waiting here to take the fall
And everything’s my fault
And I’m a death threat, haven’t slept yet
Baby, why the wake-up call
I’m the bad boy, tell the tabloids
Everything’s my fault
Yeah, write it
Everything’s my fault
I went to heaven, I couldn’t get in, for what I have done
I said please take me, they said your crazy, you had too much fun
You can’t save me
You can’t change me
Well I’m waiting for my wakeup call
And everything’s my fault
You can’t save me
You can’t blame me
Well I’m waiting here to take the fall
And everything’s my fault...
~Goodbye John
I have a best friend who has become my sweetheart after all this mess. With all the damage that I went through being someone else's girl, I only saw my friend Daniel as someone outside. I never realized that He even cared until after the day that I was told about my ex's BS. Since then I have called Daniel my Prince because he saved me from utter nervous breakdowns and not eatting for days. Though I have been saved and I learned my lesson, I worry that my ex would never understand either of them, love and honesty. Here's the song that I dedicate to him, and I pray in one way or other he can eventually get himself together.
SAVE ME (Unwritten Law)
Had a bad day, don’t talk to me, I’m gonna ride this out
My little black heart breaks apart with your big mouth and
I’m sick of my sickness, don’t touch me you’ll get this
I’m useless, lazy, perverted and you hate me
You can’t save me
You can’t change me
Well I’m waiting for my wakeup call
And everything’s my fault
Went to the doctor and I asked her to make this stop
Got medication, a new addiction, fuckin’ thanks a lot
I had a relapse, I’m bad at rehabs, it ruins everything
So point you finger at the singer, he’s in the pharmacy
You can’t save me
You can’t change me
Well I’m waiting for my wakeup call
And everything’s my fault
You can’t save me
You can’t blame me
Well I’m waiting here to take the fall
And everything’s my fault
And I’m a death threat, haven’t slept yet
Baby, why the wake-up call
I’m the bad boy, tell the tabloids
Everything’s my fault
Yeah, write it
Everything’s my fault
I went to heaven, I couldn’t get in, for what I have done
I said please take me, they said your crazy, you had too much fun
You can’t save me
You can’t change me
Well I’m waiting for my wakeup call
And everything’s my fault
You can’t save me
You can’t blame me
Well I’m waiting here to take the fall
And everything’s my fault...
~Goodbye John