Chapter 10 Escape from Switzerland
Title: Escape from Switzerland
Author: Jill aalatariel
Rating: R (NC-17 at times)
Summary: This is a bad Jacob fic..I apologize for all the Jacob fans, it explores a very dark side of Jacob Black. Also, spoilers for New Moon and Twilight and possibly Eclipse (just to be safe...I would feel awful is something was ruined for anyone)
A/N: I don't own Twilight :( ENJOY!
Mood music for this chapter: Requiem for a Dream theme.
Links to all of the other chapters can be found here.
Edward’s POV
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A thunderstorm raged on outside as the nighttime wore on slowly. Thunder would occasionally shake the windows in my room, contorting the view outside into curious shapes. Bella slept through it all, rather deeply, and I was thankful. I sat on the plush carpet by the window while Bella lay, stretched out, on the couch; lightening crashed illuminating her bruised face and I had to tear my gaze away from her, I couldn’t stand the pain that was evident on her beautiful features.
The night was always a curious time for our kind. It was hard to imagine what I could have possibly done with my nights before Bella came into my life. I would mainly spend my time listening to music, thinking, reading, occasionally hunting nocturnal creatures, but mainly I would watch the night. I never knew what I was watching, waiting, for but it was nice to feel that we had our own time once the sun sunk below the horizon. It was a calm time, but for me, tonight was anything but calm. My mind was working out the details of how best to handle the situation my family found itself in; it had been a long time since I had killed anything other than an animal, then again I wouldn’t classify Jacob Black under the category of human at the moment. Still, as easy as it was to envision myself killing the son of a bitch it wasn’t something to be taken lightly.
I leaned my head back against the wall and closed my eyes. Shaking my head back and forth I attempted to come up with a reasoning that wouldn’t leave me feeling at all guilty, my head fell to the side and I opened my eyes to glance at Bella; she was wearing a Violent Femmes tshirt I had gotten at a concert Jasper had taken me to sometime ago. Her face was smooth and restful, save the bruises I would have thought she looked angelic, but angels weren’t supposed to be battered and broken. I clenched my teeth in a moment of rage to prevent myself from growling too loudly. For her, I would do anything, I would take a life, I needed to take his life. With my decision in mind I turned back to the window, I wouldn’t let any of my siblings or Carlisle and Esme take Jacob Black down, it would be me, and me alone.
My parents often tried to speak softly when they were trying to have a private conversation but it was hard when you had a son who could read minds and a daughter who could see the future, so it wasn’t too terribly difficult to stumble upon their conversation as they stood in the hallway trying to be quiet even for vampires. Esme’s thoughts were racing as were Carlisle’s as I caught snippets of their conversation,
“I know it would make things much easier but this has to be his decision Carlisle. We can’t make up his mind for him.” My mother said. I was intrigued because, I figured, they were talking about me,
“I understand, it’s just, she’s been through so much that, it may be easier to leave…” Carlisle cut himself off no doubt because they were so close to our door, or Esme had given him one of her pleading looks, “Just let me talk to him, let me explain.” My father’s response was followed by a light tap on my door, I straightened myself up to make it appear as if I hadn’t been listening,
“Come in.” I barely whispered. Light from the hallway flooded my room casting a glow on everything. Carlisle stepped in leaving Esme in the hall,
“Edward, would you mind speaking to me for a moment…just in my office.” Carlisle asked,
“No, no, I told her I wouldn’t leave her, never again, that I’d be here when she woke up. I’m sorry.” I shook my head as I watched Bella sleep,
“Son, it’s okay. It’s just down the hall, she’ll be asleep when you get back. There’s just a small matter I would like to discuss with you, please.” Carlisle asked me. I didn’t want to leave her, I didn’t want to break another promise to her but Carlisle sounded so desperate, then again, what did he want to talk to me about that couldn’t be discussed around a sleeping Bella
“I can’t. I can’t leave her…I--” I turned to glance at Bella once more. She looked so peaceful, finally sleeping, I couldn’t disturb her to ask if it was alright, but there was no other way I was going to leave her. I gently shook Bella back to consciousness, “Bella? Isabella?” She opened her eyes,
“Don’t call me that.” She whispered groggily. I couldn’t help but laugh, “What’s wrong Edward?” She asked when she finally noticed that it was still dark outside. I brushed her hair from her eyes,
“Nothing sweetheart, Carlisle just needs to speak with me about something important in his office. I’m going to call Esme in here, is it okay if I go talk with him?” I asked her. She thought for a moment and nodded,
“Sure. I’ll be fine, you’re just down the hall.” She curled back up and was back asleep in a matter of seconds. I followed Carlisle out the door and into the hall,
“Would you mind staying with her? Just until I’m done talking with Edward?” Carlisle asked Esme. He was doing a fine job at blocking his thoughts and it annoyed me a little,
“Of course. Not a problem.” Esme smiled at me and walked into my room. She greatly enjoyed my book collection and could easily sit and read without disturbing Bella. Carlisle motioned for me to follow him and I complied.
We entered his well lit office and I took a minute to admire his paintings and books as I did every time I entered. I soon realized that I had a Bella to get back to and took my usual seat across from Carlisle right next to Alice’s seat on one side and Emmett’s on the other. Carlisle learned long ago that it was wise to have five chairs in his office during those “accidents” such as a broken window, or ruined garden, that often involved all children. Carlisle sat at his desk, his hands folded in front of him. He looked exactly as he had when we first met so many years ago, but, in his expression, he looked more fatherly than I had ever seen him,
“Edward, I’ve been blocking my thoughts.” He started by saying,
“I know.” I responded, “You’ve been translating Doctor Faustus. It’s been just a bit annoying.” I couldn’t help but crack a smile. Carlisle continued,
“There’s something I need to…propose to you and, I’m not sure how to go about it without you blowing up.” I was confused, why would I blow up?
“Just telling me would probably be your best bet.” I offered, I didn’t like when people tried to string me along. Carlisle sighed, unnecessarily, and went on with his explanation,
“Edward, I’m sure you know that what Jacob Black did to Bella was…unforgivable to say the least.” I felt a snarl leave my throat, something I couldn’t block even if I tried,
“You think?” I asked sarcastically,
“Edward, Bella was damaged, physically and emotionally and we don’t know what sort of long term effects may have been caused by what Jacob Black attempted and what he succeeded in doing. As difficult it is for me to say this I think, maybe, for safety reasons and for Bella’s sake that…you may want to consider.” He paused and suddenly his plan fell into place, I stood up so quickly that I almost threw the chair across the room,
“No! Carlisle, I won’t take her soul from her!” I shouted. I didn’t mean to shout,
“It has never been proven that our soul disappears when we are turned. Edward, please sit down. Think about this for a moment. Please.” I was breathing hard without needing to breathe at all, I followed my father’s suggestion and sat,
“I can’t…it would cause her too much pain.” I said staring at a spot on Carlisle’s desk, I didn’t want to meet his eyes, too afraid that I would find the truth hidden there,
“As opposed to what? The eternal pain she’s going to feel from what happened?” He asked me,
“I’m going to fix it..” I said quietly,
“Taking Jacob Black out of the picture is a good idea but it’s not going to fix everything son.” He was right, I knew it, but I didn’t want to accept it. I didn’t want to take her soul, I didn’t want to cause her pain.
“I don’t want to hurt her.” I said finally looking Carlisle in the eyes,
“It’s the best solution.” He told me flatly, “She’d be strong, the memory of what happened would fade with time.” He went on with all the good points to the idea of changing Bella,
“What about Charlie? Where would we go? What would we say, that we’re starting college early? Or how about this, ‘Hey, Charlie, I know I was gone and crushed your daughter but now I’m back and we’re in love again can I take her away for…ever? And change her into a vampire…oh by the way, I’m a vampire.’ I don’t think he’d exactly jump for joy.” Carlisle knew I had a point but he was ready with an answer,
“I think Bella should have a say in this.” He told me,
“I agree. I’ll ask her in the morning. For now, we let her rest.” I answered. Carlisle nodded,
“Now, about Jacob Black.” Carlisle began. I could almost feel my eyes darken,
“He’s mine.” I said simply. In that instant, everything changed,
“EDWARD!!!!” A scream came from down the hall but it didn’t belong to Bella, it belonged to Alice. Her piercing scream was immediately followed by the crashing sound of glass, that came from my room. I was out of Carlisle’s office in an instant, I knocked the door in without even thinking and found Esme crouched in front of a trembling Bella facing a very idiotic Jacob Black,
“Esme, I thought you were supposed to be pleasant.” Jacob growled, he too was crouched, ready to strike,
“Nice guess mutt. Ever heard the saying ‘Don’t mess with a momma bear’s cubs?’ you are messing with the wrong set of cubs.” Esme growled protectively. I was by her side in a second,
“He’s mine.” I growled through my teeth. I turned around to see the rest of my family ready to fight. Bella was pushed behind Emmett’s back near Jasper, “Are you really that big of an imbecile Jacob? That you would actually come near her ever again. I warned you, I told you, your life would be mine.” My teeth were clenched and my voice was low and dangerous,
“I came for what’s mine.” His eyes flickered to Bella,
“You son of a bitch.” I said. How dare he talk about Bella like she was a possession,
“It’s true.” He said simply, “Also, I wanted a fair fight and…seven against one doesn’t seem like a very fair fight.” Jacob and I were circling each other like a pair of predators, and that’s what we were in that moment. I could feel my family getting closer,
“We fight as a family.” Emmett said,
“I said he was mine.” I replied without taking my eyes off of Jacob,
“Always the hero huh Edward? Where were you when Bella needed you the most?” He was hitting below the belt,
“Shut up.” I spat,
“You think she loves you?” He questioned,
“I don’t think she’s a dog person.” I retorted,
“I DO LOVE HIM!” I heard Bella pipe up,
“Bella stay out of this.” I told her,
“Where were you when she was on the forest floor?” Jacob said as we continued to close in on each other, “Leech.” He added,
“Mongrel.” I growled. I was trying to concentrate on anything beside the images in Jacob’s mind, “You know, I’m getting tired of throwing insults back and forth like a couple of pre-teens.” I said through gritted teeth,
“The feeling’s mutual.” He spat back. And with that he leapt for me. I met him in the air and we tumbled through the window. We hit the ground hard still entangled in a snarling mess. Primal noises escaped each of our throats as we detangled ourselves. I stood facing Jacob Black. His entire frame shook and I knew what was coming, what would happen in a matter of seconds. And happen it did, where Jacob Black had stood now crouched a giant, russet colored, wolf. I took my stance and, in an instant, the wolf lunged for me. I heard Bella scream for me somewhere to my right, I figured the family had moved downstairs in case more werewolves showed up, but it didn’t matter, this was all for her and I was going to make sure she was safe for the rest of eternity, no matter what the cost.
Author: Jill aalatariel
Rating: R (NC-17 at times)
Summary: This is a bad Jacob fic..I apologize for all the Jacob fans, it explores a very dark side of Jacob Black. Also, spoilers for New Moon and Twilight and possibly Eclipse (just to be safe...I would feel awful is something was ruined for anyone)
A/N: I don't own Twilight :( ENJOY!
Mood music for this chapter: Requiem for a Dream theme.
Links to all of the other chapters can be found here.
Edward’s POV
============
A thunderstorm raged on outside as the nighttime wore on slowly. Thunder would occasionally shake the windows in my room, contorting the view outside into curious shapes. Bella slept through it all, rather deeply, and I was thankful. I sat on the plush carpet by the window while Bella lay, stretched out, on the couch; lightening crashed illuminating her bruised face and I had to tear my gaze away from her, I couldn’t stand the pain that was evident on her beautiful features.
The night was always a curious time for our kind. It was hard to imagine what I could have possibly done with my nights before Bella came into my life. I would mainly spend my time listening to music, thinking, reading, occasionally hunting nocturnal creatures, but mainly I would watch the night. I never knew what I was watching, waiting, for but it was nice to feel that we had our own time once the sun sunk below the horizon. It was a calm time, but for me, tonight was anything but calm. My mind was working out the details of how best to handle the situation my family found itself in; it had been a long time since I had killed anything other than an animal, then again I wouldn’t classify Jacob Black under the category of human at the moment. Still, as easy as it was to envision myself killing the son of a bitch it wasn’t something to be taken lightly.
I leaned my head back against the wall and closed my eyes. Shaking my head back and forth I attempted to come up with a reasoning that wouldn’t leave me feeling at all guilty, my head fell to the side and I opened my eyes to glance at Bella; she was wearing a Violent Femmes tshirt I had gotten at a concert Jasper had taken me to sometime ago. Her face was smooth and restful, save the bruises I would have thought she looked angelic, but angels weren’t supposed to be battered and broken. I clenched my teeth in a moment of rage to prevent myself from growling too loudly. For her, I would do anything, I would take a life, I needed to take his life. With my decision in mind I turned back to the window, I wouldn’t let any of my siblings or Carlisle and Esme take Jacob Black down, it would be me, and me alone.
My parents often tried to speak softly when they were trying to have a private conversation but it was hard when you had a son who could read minds and a daughter who could see the future, so it wasn’t too terribly difficult to stumble upon their conversation as they stood in the hallway trying to be quiet even for vampires. Esme’s thoughts were racing as were Carlisle’s as I caught snippets of their conversation,
“I know it would make things much easier but this has to be his decision Carlisle. We can’t make up his mind for him.” My mother said. I was intrigued because, I figured, they were talking about me,
“I understand, it’s just, she’s been through so much that, it may be easier to leave…” Carlisle cut himself off no doubt because they were so close to our door, or Esme had given him one of her pleading looks, “Just let me talk to him, let me explain.” My father’s response was followed by a light tap on my door, I straightened myself up to make it appear as if I hadn’t been listening,
“Come in.” I barely whispered. Light from the hallway flooded my room casting a glow on everything. Carlisle stepped in leaving Esme in the hall,
“Edward, would you mind speaking to me for a moment…just in my office.” Carlisle asked,
“No, no, I told her I wouldn’t leave her, never again, that I’d be here when she woke up. I’m sorry.” I shook my head as I watched Bella sleep,
“Son, it’s okay. It’s just down the hall, she’ll be asleep when you get back. There’s just a small matter I would like to discuss with you, please.” Carlisle asked me. I didn’t want to leave her, I didn’t want to break another promise to her but Carlisle sounded so desperate, then again, what did he want to talk to me about that couldn’t be discussed around a sleeping Bella
“I can’t. I can’t leave her…I--” I turned to glance at Bella once more. She looked so peaceful, finally sleeping, I couldn’t disturb her to ask if it was alright, but there was no other way I was going to leave her. I gently shook Bella back to consciousness, “Bella? Isabella?” She opened her eyes,
“Don’t call me that.” She whispered groggily. I couldn’t help but laugh, “What’s wrong Edward?” She asked when she finally noticed that it was still dark outside. I brushed her hair from her eyes,
“Nothing sweetheart, Carlisle just needs to speak with me about something important in his office. I’m going to call Esme in here, is it okay if I go talk with him?” I asked her. She thought for a moment and nodded,
“Sure. I’ll be fine, you’re just down the hall.” She curled back up and was back asleep in a matter of seconds. I followed Carlisle out the door and into the hall,
“Would you mind staying with her? Just until I’m done talking with Edward?” Carlisle asked Esme. He was doing a fine job at blocking his thoughts and it annoyed me a little,
“Of course. Not a problem.” Esme smiled at me and walked into my room. She greatly enjoyed my book collection and could easily sit and read without disturbing Bella. Carlisle motioned for me to follow him and I complied.
We entered his well lit office and I took a minute to admire his paintings and books as I did every time I entered. I soon realized that I had a Bella to get back to and took my usual seat across from Carlisle right next to Alice’s seat on one side and Emmett’s on the other. Carlisle learned long ago that it was wise to have five chairs in his office during those “accidents” such as a broken window, or ruined garden, that often involved all children. Carlisle sat at his desk, his hands folded in front of him. He looked exactly as he had when we first met so many years ago, but, in his expression, he looked more fatherly than I had ever seen him,
“Edward, I’ve been blocking my thoughts.” He started by saying,
“I know.” I responded, “You’ve been translating Doctor Faustus. It’s been just a bit annoying.” I couldn’t help but crack a smile. Carlisle continued,
“There’s something I need to…propose to you and, I’m not sure how to go about it without you blowing up.” I was confused, why would I blow up?
“Just telling me would probably be your best bet.” I offered, I didn’t like when people tried to string me along. Carlisle sighed, unnecessarily, and went on with his explanation,
“Edward, I’m sure you know that what Jacob Black did to Bella was…unforgivable to say the least.” I felt a snarl leave my throat, something I couldn’t block even if I tried,
“You think?” I asked sarcastically,
“Edward, Bella was damaged, physically and emotionally and we don’t know what sort of long term effects may have been caused by what Jacob Black attempted and what he succeeded in doing. As difficult it is for me to say this I think, maybe, for safety reasons and for Bella’s sake that…you may want to consider.” He paused and suddenly his plan fell into place, I stood up so quickly that I almost threw the chair across the room,
“No! Carlisle, I won’t take her soul from her!” I shouted. I didn’t mean to shout,
“It has never been proven that our soul disappears when we are turned. Edward, please sit down. Think about this for a moment. Please.” I was breathing hard without needing to breathe at all, I followed my father’s suggestion and sat,
“I can’t…it would cause her too much pain.” I said staring at a spot on Carlisle’s desk, I didn’t want to meet his eyes, too afraid that I would find the truth hidden there,
“As opposed to what? The eternal pain she’s going to feel from what happened?” He asked me,
“I’m going to fix it..” I said quietly,
“Taking Jacob Black out of the picture is a good idea but it’s not going to fix everything son.” He was right, I knew it, but I didn’t want to accept it. I didn’t want to take her soul, I didn’t want to cause her pain.
“I don’t want to hurt her.” I said finally looking Carlisle in the eyes,
“It’s the best solution.” He told me flatly, “She’d be strong, the memory of what happened would fade with time.” He went on with all the good points to the idea of changing Bella,
“What about Charlie? Where would we go? What would we say, that we’re starting college early? Or how about this, ‘Hey, Charlie, I know I was gone and crushed your daughter but now I’m back and we’re in love again can I take her away for…ever? And change her into a vampire…oh by the way, I’m a vampire.’ I don’t think he’d exactly jump for joy.” Carlisle knew I had a point but he was ready with an answer,
“I think Bella should have a say in this.” He told me,
“I agree. I’ll ask her in the morning. For now, we let her rest.” I answered. Carlisle nodded,
“Now, about Jacob Black.” Carlisle began. I could almost feel my eyes darken,
“He’s mine.” I said simply. In that instant, everything changed,
“EDWARD!!!!” A scream came from down the hall but it didn’t belong to Bella, it belonged to Alice. Her piercing scream was immediately followed by the crashing sound of glass, that came from my room. I was out of Carlisle’s office in an instant, I knocked the door in without even thinking and found Esme crouched in front of a trembling Bella facing a very idiotic Jacob Black,
“Esme, I thought you were supposed to be pleasant.” Jacob growled, he too was crouched, ready to strike,
“Nice guess mutt. Ever heard the saying ‘Don’t mess with a momma bear’s cubs?’ you are messing with the wrong set of cubs.” Esme growled protectively. I was by her side in a second,
“He’s mine.” I growled through my teeth. I turned around to see the rest of my family ready to fight. Bella was pushed behind Emmett’s back near Jasper, “Are you really that big of an imbecile Jacob? That you would actually come near her ever again. I warned you, I told you, your life would be mine.” My teeth were clenched and my voice was low and dangerous,
“I came for what’s mine.” His eyes flickered to Bella,
“You son of a bitch.” I said. How dare he talk about Bella like she was a possession,
“It’s true.” He said simply, “Also, I wanted a fair fight and…seven against one doesn’t seem like a very fair fight.” Jacob and I were circling each other like a pair of predators, and that’s what we were in that moment. I could feel my family getting closer,
“We fight as a family.” Emmett said,
“I said he was mine.” I replied without taking my eyes off of Jacob,
“Always the hero huh Edward? Where were you when Bella needed you the most?” He was hitting below the belt,
“Shut up.” I spat,
“You think she loves you?” He questioned,
“I don’t think she’s a dog person.” I retorted,
“I DO LOVE HIM!” I heard Bella pipe up,
“Bella stay out of this.” I told her,
“Where were you when she was on the forest floor?” Jacob said as we continued to close in on each other, “Leech.” He added,
“Mongrel.” I growled. I was trying to concentrate on anything beside the images in Jacob’s mind, “You know, I’m getting tired of throwing insults back and forth like a couple of pre-teens.” I said through gritted teeth,
“The feeling’s mutual.” He spat back. And with that he leapt for me. I met him in the air and we tumbled through the window. We hit the ground hard still entangled in a snarling mess. Primal noises escaped each of our throats as we detangled ourselves. I stood facing Jacob Black. His entire frame shook and I knew what was coming, what would happen in a matter of seconds. And happen it did, where Jacob Black had stood now crouched a giant, russet colored, wolf. I took my stance and, in an instant, the wolf lunged for me. I heard Bella scream for me somewhere to my right, I figured the family had moved downstairs in case more werewolves showed up, but it didn’t matter, this was all for her and I was going to make sure she was safe for the rest of eternity, no matter what the cost.