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Im 30. sigh. Am feeling kinda hollow today. The last few months ive been reaching out to people... wanting to help them, wanting to give back in some way. Yet, when it comes to the last few days, when ive been alone and needing someone... noone has time for me. I feel ive given away parts of myself to so many people, and gotten none back.. there is hardly anything left. i feel used, and ive been almost made to feel embarrassed by my behaviour.. as its my fault, for 'whoring myself out'. Im looking in all the wrong places for love and affection, giving it out to people i think need it, hoping for some in return.. but i get nothing, and feel hurt, and rejected. And somewhat disillusioned. Do i just always try to see the best in people? am i an idiot?
and why do i care?! I have a few real and close friends, a great bloke and great family, so why does the rejection of a few people hurt me so much?
and why do i care?! I have a few real and close friends, a great bloke and great family, so why does the rejection of a few people hurt me so much?