I hate this
My life is like an emotional rollercoaster. And I hate it.
Yesterday was awesome.
Today sucked. I thought I did REALLY REALLY well on my precal test...definitely not great. Not failing, but not great. I made so many dumb mistakes! I hate that I am so dumb sometimes. We can just face that my sister got the brains of the family. Not that I am trying to compare myself to her, but it is definitely one of her strengths. And I envy her for that. Not in a bad way, but in a "Man, that's awesome that she is smart" way.
I'm just so fed up with my life right now. And yes, I know I am blessed, but I'm still frustrated that my life isn't great right now and I brought most of it on myself. I want to kick myself for making my life so stressful, cause it is all my fault. It's my fault that work is stressful. It's my fault I suck at math. It's all my fault. And I HATE that. It's so much easier to blame it on other people, ya know?
I am definitely looking forward to Thanksgiving break...it will bring much relief and refreshment. Then maybe I can be happy again.
Yesterday was awesome.
Today sucked. I thought I did REALLY REALLY well on my precal test...definitely not great. Not failing, but not great. I made so many dumb mistakes! I hate that I am so dumb sometimes. We can just face that my sister got the brains of the family. Not that I am trying to compare myself to her, but it is definitely one of her strengths. And I envy her for that. Not in a bad way, but in a "Man, that's awesome that she is smart" way.
I'm just so fed up with my life right now. And yes, I know I am blessed, but I'm still frustrated that my life isn't great right now and I brought most of it on myself. I want to kick myself for making my life so stressful, cause it is all my fault. It's my fault that work is stressful. It's my fault I suck at math. It's all my fault. And I HATE that. It's so much easier to blame it on other people, ya know?
I am definitely looking forward to Thanksgiving break...it will bring much relief and refreshment. Then maybe I can be happy again.