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I thought I was safe with you,
I trusted you. After being friends with someone for almost a year you
develop a sort of comfort level with them. Each day it seemed I cared
for you more and more and when you finally kissed me and I was lying in
your arms I thought everything was perfect. I thought we could make it
work even though I am going to school in North Carolina. I told myself
we had a friendship before this we see each other all the time you
would never just screw around with me. I found it to be a coincidence
that u randomly asked me to hang out when 2 days before I had confided
in someone that it was true I did in fact have feelings for you. I
thought that I was different because you actually opened up to me and
made me feel loved. I looked forward to the times when it could just be
you and just lying in each others arms completely content just being
with each other.
Now I realize that in actuality you knew I liked you and just thought it was what I wanted. Yet then you tell me you wanted to kiss me. You totally contradict yourself. Then you try to tell me you have feelings for me but right now isnt a good time and that you want to continue this. Well guess what im not going to sit around and wait for you. In fact I leave for North Carolina in 47 days....
I dont deserve this I did nothing but good things for you. I drove you around I went and sat at the registry with you so you could get your liscence back, I took you to get your tattoo and even printed out the tattoo that you wanted. I was there for you and trusted you to be careful with me. You know me better than most people, you know how sensative I am and yet you somehow managed to break my heart, it hurts right now so much. I wish that you had been some random guy that way it wouldn't have hurt as much, I expected so much more from you.
It is killing me that you claim to care so much about me and yet you hurt me so much...
Now I realize that in actuality you knew I liked you and just thought it was what I wanted. Yet then you tell me you wanted to kiss me. You totally contradict yourself. Then you try to tell me you have feelings for me but right now isnt a good time and that you want to continue this. Well guess what im not going to sit around and wait for you. In fact I leave for North Carolina in 47 days....
I dont deserve this I did nothing but good things for you. I drove you around I went and sat at the registry with you so you could get your liscence back, I took you to get your tattoo and even printed out the tattoo that you wanted. I was there for you and trusted you to be careful with me. You know me better than most people, you know how sensative I am and yet you somehow managed to break my heart, it hurts right now so much. I wish that you had been some random guy that way it wouldn't have hurt as much, I expected so much more from you.
It is killing me that you claim to care so much about me and yet you hurt me so much...