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I think I have pink eye now. Lord.. What the hell did I do to deserve this crap?
And you know what? I'm not feeling much better. Hardly better at all. So what if something's wrong with me? Like really really wrong?
And how would the doctors know? It's not like they're doing anything. Right now, they're just sitting on their big fat butts waiting for this lyme disease test to come back. And what if that's negative? Then what? Should we just sit around for another few weeks and see what happens?
Tomorrow, if my eyes are still pink, it will be another trip down to the doctors.
Dammit. I JUST WANT TO GET BETTER. Why is this so hard? Why can't I just feel GOOD for one day?
I should go for a second opinion. I don't want to be like this for the rest of my life. I just can't put up with this. And I know everyone thinks that I'm just being dramatic. I can tell people don't believe me. And that pisses me off the most. Because they just don't understand. No one understands.
I wonder what I did to deserve this. There's a lot worse people than myself. Why couldn't they get this? Not me.