Can Someone Tell Me How To Get Things Back To How They Used To Be
Hey yeah, so some of my day was pretty good, while other parts of it sucked... No thanks to Evan.
First period we didn't do anything but play our marching music. I love Queen and all, but wow this is so easy now... I'm getting bored with it already. But it's still a kickass show. Then second period we listened to a tape of a lecture about Mark Twain (who is seriously, my great great Uncle of some sort) and it was soooo funny. I sat there and laughed with Ryan and Bryan (hahahaha) and Shana the whole time. Pre-calc sucks. End of story. Uh, then in French we took some notes because we have a test tomorrow, and anyone who doesn't get an A, she's throwing out of the class. =( But it's on verbs, and I know my verbage. =) She likes me anyway... She wouldn't kick me out... It's the idiots she wants out. Soooo. Physics.. Um. Lyons bugs the crap outta me, but whatever. Gotta deal with it, huh? Yeah. Then AP History was good, as always... We didn't do much. There's a Zinn quiz tomorrow. Urg. Wish me luck.
Band practice. I guess you could say that's where it all just, went sort of downhill. Yeah. I was just fed up with Evan today... I do too much for him, and I think he's taking advantage of that now. I brought him an extra water bottle, right? So he says, "Hey you brought me water, right?"... Yeah. Then on the way out, he makes ME carry it out, then he goes, "Liiiiiindsey. I'm thirsty. Open my water and get it out for me." Dude, I'm not his personal bitch. But I guess that's what he thinks.
But it starts to storm like hell, and we barely got any drill done, so we go inside. Blah. Music practice was alright. The Band mommies had to fit me for another uniform because they needed mine to fit another girl. So yeah. I have a spiffy new uniform. I like it though, because this one acutally fits me better. Sooooo. After practice we have an officer meeting, so I get all my stuff packed up and I head out there. At that moment, I decided to gather up my courage and ask Evan if he wanted to come over for dinner tomorrow. Know what he said to me? "No, not really." and just gave me a look. Seriously. I wanted to cry, because I mean, I called him last night to talk to him about it, but I choked and just made myself sound like an idiot because I had called him without even saying anything. I just interrupted him. I felt like a dumbass. And this just killed me.
I'm not asking him to go to homecoming. And I'm not doing anything for him anymore. I'm too nice to him, and he's starting to take advantage of that. Whatever. I care so much for him, but it's not worth it. I think I'll see if Bryan has anyone to go with. Or Andy. I'm sure Andy's got someone to go with though... He'd never go with me... He never even freakin' realizes I'm there or acknowledges my presence. It sucks.
So tomorrow night I'm going to the Black and Teal game with Jenna, perhaps Shana and Ashley, and then staying the night. Screw Evan, although he might enjoy that more than he'd like to admit. Ha. I'm slowly getting over this, because I hate getting treated like crap. I just wish he'd realize.
Speaking of realize, dang this is looong.
♥ Lindsey.
P.S, Does anyone know if there was ever an officer dinner scheduled?
First period we didn't do anything but play our marching music. I love Queen and all, but wow this is so easy now... I'm getting bored with it already. But it's still a kickass show. Then second period we listened to a tape of a lecture about Mark Twain (who is seriously, my great great Uncle of some sort) and it was soooo funny. I sat there and laughed with Ryan and Bryan (hahahaha) and Shana the whole time. Pre-calc sucks. End of story. Uh, then in French we took some notes because we have a test tomorrow, and anyone who doesn't get an A, she's throwing out of the class. =( But it's on verbs, and I know my verbage. =) She likes me anyway... She wouldn't kick me out... It's the idiots she wants out. Soooo. Physics.. Um. Lyons bugs the crap outta me, but whatever. Gotta deal with it, huh? Yeah. Then AP History was good, as always... We didn't do much. There's a Zinn quiz tomorrow. Urg. Wish me luck.
Band practice. I guess you could say that's where it all just, went sort of downhill. Yeah. I was just fed up with Evan today... I do too much for him, and I think he's taking advantage of that now. I brought him an extra water bottle, right? So he says, "Hey you brought me water, right?"... Yeah. Then on the way out, he makes ME carry it out, then he goes, "Liiiiiindsey. I'm thirsty. Open my water and get it out for me." Dude, I'm not his personal bitch. But I guess that's what he thinks.
But it starts to storm like hell, and we barely got any drill done, so we go inside. Blah. Music practice was alright. The Band mommies had to fit me for another uniform because they needed mine to fit another girl. So yeah. I have a spiffy new uniform. I like it though, because this one acutally fits me better. Sooooo. After practice we have an officer meeting, so I get all my stuff packed up and I head out there. At that moment, I decided to gather up my courage and ask Evan if he wanted to come over for dinner tomorrow. Know what he said to me? "No, not really." and just gave me a look. Seriously. I wanted to cry, because I mean, I called him last night to talk to him about it, but I choked and just made myself sound like an idiot because I had called him without even saying anything. I just interrupted him. I felt like a dumbass. And this just killed me.
I'm not asking him to go to homecoming. And I'm not doing anything for him anymore. I'm too nice to him, and he's starting to take advantage of that. Whatever. I care so much for him, but it's not worth it. I think I'll see if Bryan has anyone to go with. Or Andy. I'm sure Andy's got someone to go with though... He'd never go with me... He never even freakin' realizes I'm there or acknowledges my presence. It sucks.
So tomorrow night I'm going to the Black and Teal game with Jenna, perhaps Shana and Ashley, and then staying the night. Screw Evan, although he might enjoy that more than he'd like to admit. Ha. I'm slowly getting over this, because I hate getting treated like crap. I just wish he'd realize.
Speaking of realize, dang this is looong.
♥ Lindsey.
P.S, Does anyone know if there was ever an officer dinner scheduled?