dear
what you need to do is take a trip without anyone that will remind you for a long time. thats just what you have to do! you cant let yourself think about , and you can do it! you dont deserve it and i know you know that and i know you don't want to keep doing this wether you really realize it or not! just get away and let it all get out of your life it will make you a better person and teach one to! doesnt deserve the power you give , needs to be alone for a long time until just explodes with all the awful things done to you and all the others!!!! Let rot!