wow!
just finished watching one tree hill and definately had a good 10 minute crying session!!!!!... not bc chad michael murry almost died, no... b/c at the end haley came in and they just hugged cause they were so glad to see eachother again when he could have died and i just started leaking and all i could think about was if that ever happened to leonard i dont know what i would do! that boy is my best friend and he has my heart theres no other way to put it, thats my nenord! hes takin care of me for the past 3 years through everything! and i love him! i dont know what im going to do when i go to college with out being able to just call him or go see him when i need someone! i mean i have girl friends but no one's like him! and i cant believe ive ever hurt him the way i did, we've gotten past that but i still havent been able to tell him somethings out of fear of losing him and i dont realy want to tell him b/c its like stating that it actually happened and i dont want it to be true and im sorry to him for that i regret it all and i know that wouldnt change anything. i love you nen!