not restless this time...unsettled...???
I'm ready for a change...
I want more stability in my life...
I hate how I don't feel like I have time for anything anymore...grad school is taking over my life...and I mean...I'm happy I'm even in the program...and I really do love it...and I know things will settle down...eventually...
It would be SOOO great to have someone around who I can just...chill with...everyone around here is SO scattered...my closest friend these days is at least 20 mins. away...and I have to take the freeway...
I wish I had someone who I could just decompress with.
I don't know what I would have done if I were at Wayne State and Tara weren't there with me...haha...her mom was my life management skills (aka home ec.) teacher in middle school! How funny is that...I'm SOOO happy I have her...we have some of the weirdest girls ever in the program...and it's already pretty clique-y...it seemed like everyone knew everyone else already...I don't know...
I'm moving to Boston...I know it's still a couple semesters away...but this time next year I will be looking for an internship...and an apartment in Boston with Tara!!! I'm gonna love that city!
At least it's good to know that I really can buckle down...and get serious about SOMEthing...who knows...
Sooo...Ryan and me are occasionally talking again...and I'm really really happy we are...it's really different this time...I'm completely different this time...he keeps suggesting we hang out...I don't want to...I mean...of course I want to...but I WILL NOT...but I miss how I felt when we were together...I miss just having downtime...and spending all day in bed and watching tv and cuddling...I miss feeling like I KNOW someone would take care of me...even if it was only for the weekend...and even tho we could/would never work out...it was nice while it lasted tho...
The depression of winter is hitting me early this year...I miss being as happy as I was this summer...
On a much funnier note...I heard today that I was second in line as a wife choice...haha...
I want more stability in my life...
I hate how I don't feel like I have time for anything anymore...grad school is taking over my life...and I mean...I'm happy I'm even in the program...and I really do love it...and I know things will settle down...eventually...
It would be SOOO great to have someone around who I can just...chill with...everyone around here is SO scattered...my closest friend these days is at least 20 mins. away...and I have to take the freeway...
I wish I had someone who I could just decompress with.
I don't know what I would have done if I were at Wayne State and Tara weren't there with me...haha...her mom was my life management skills (aka home ec.) teacher in middle school! How funny is that...I'm SOOO happy I have her...we have some of the weirdest girls ever in the program...and it's already pretty clique-y...it seemed like everyone knew everyone else already...I don't know...
I'm moving to Boston...I know it's still a couple semesters away...but this time next year I will be looking for an internship...and an apartment in Boston with Tara!!! I'm gonna love that city!
At least it's good to know that I really can buckle down...and get serious about SOMEthing...who knows...
Sooo...Ryan and me are occasionally talking again...and I'm really really happy we are...it's really different this time...I'm completely different this time...he keeps suggesting we hang out...I don't want to...I mean...of course I want to...but I WILL NOT...but I miss how I felt when we were together...I miss just having downtime...and spending all day in bed and watching tv and cuddling...I miss feeling like I KNOW someone would take care of me...even if it was only for the weekend...and even tho we could/would never work out...it was nice while it lasted tho...
The depression of winter is hitting me early this year...I miss being as happy as I was this summer...
On a much funnier note...I heard today that I was second in line as a wife choice...haha...