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Wow...
This was a really super great weekend...
Up north was PHENOMENAL...as usual...I'm REALLY going to miss my boys!...But hopefully I will get them to the beach at least ONCE this entire summer...
I hung out with a TON of kids from hs today...it was SUCH a great time...I forgot how much I missed those kids!!! (Some of them)...And still...some of it seemed pretty fake...but it was awesome seeing the kids I ALWAYS hung out with that I don't get to see too often!
Here's a question...
WHY ARE BOYS SO DUMB?!
--I mean...you hear rumors about one...you call him out on his bullshit...he makes you feel bad about making assumptions...and then all of a sudden he's bragging to all his friends about what may or may not have happened...DEALBREAKER!!!...damn...he was pretty hot...
PS...for those of you kids who don't already know...I haven't talked to Ryan since the morning I left his house...BEFORE I graduated...and I know I've said this before...but I'm seriously done with him this time...and this may or may not have been what he was going for...but I'm totally going to leave him alone...I am done with it...I'm SO numb to everything Ryan...and it's to the point now where I am just feeling REALLY stupid for even getting involved with him to begin with...
BUT...there is an upside...I realized that I DO NOT want to be in a relationship right now...they are bullshit...and really what is the point of them...???...I don't understand...if you want validation...have fun...live in the moment and just do what makes you happy...everything will fall into place and work out exactly how it should...and really...I FINALLY realized how much better off I am without obsessing over him...
It still is driving me nuts tho...I STILL think about him at least once a day...in a good way...I don't want to be bitter...I just want to be able to move on...and I'm SO close to being there I can FEEL it!!!
Anyway...the job is great...this summer is going to be a blast...I got someone fired already (and camp hasn't even started) and we have some AWESOME new people this summer!!!
Things are seriously SO great right now!!!
This was a really super great weekend...
Up north was PHENOMENAL...as usual...I'm REALLY going to miss my boys!...But hopefully I will get them to the beach at least ONCE this entire summer...
I hung out with a TON of kids from hs today...it was SUCH a great time...I forgot how much I missed those kids!!! (Some of them)...And still...some of it seemed pretty fake...but it was awesome seeing the kids I ALWAYS hung out with that I don't get to see too often!
Here's a question...
WHY ARE BOYS SO DUMB?!
--I mean...you hear rumors about one...you call him out on his bullshit...he makes you feel bad about making assumptions...and then all of a sudden he's bragging to all his friends about what may or may not have happened...DEALBREAKER!!!...damn...he was pretty hot...
PS...for those of you kids who don't already know...I haven't talked to Ryan since the morning I left his house...BEFORE I graduated...and I know I've said this before...but I'm seriously done with him this time...and this may or may not have been what he was going for...but I'm totally going to leave him alone...I am done with it...I'm SO numb to everything Ryan...and it's to the point now where I am just feeling REALLY stupid for even getting involved with him to begin with...
BUT...there is an upside...I realized that I DO NOT want to be in a relationship right now...they are bullshit...and really what is the point of them...???...I don't understand...if you want validation...have fun...live in the moment and just do what makes you happy...everything will fall into place and work out exactly how it should...and really...I FINALLY realized how much better off I am without obsessing over him...
It still is driving me nuts tho...I STILL think about him at least once a day...in a good way...I don't want to be bitter...I just want to be able to move on...and I'm SO close to being there I can FEEL it!!!
Anyway...the job is great...this summer is going to be a blast...I got someone fired already (and camp hasn't even started) and we have some AWESOME new people this summer!!!
Things are seriously SO great right now!!!