Love
So I am reflecting on my life and thinking that I've focused so much on romantic love and I'm still single. I want to focus more on loving my friends, on loving all people.
I wish I could make everyone feel that they are truly seen. I want them to know that I don't want anything from them. Rich does this so well, it seems like he always has something to say to everyone in the office and yet it never feels like just small talk. I wish I could do that but I'm not *that* extroverted. And I could maaybe imitate his behavior but how could I get it to feel as genuine as he does?
I (almost always) really like when people do the friendly shoulder touch but I'd feel awkward about doing it myself. Maybe it seems weirder coming from a young female? I associate it with someone older than me and usually male but not always. Maybe I just need practice and it shouldn't be too too scary if I start with my friends.
I already do have friends that I connect to. I already do smile at strangers. But I want more of that. Partly I think that's a good goal to want more of it. But partly I think that it's coming from that part of me that feels like I am never enough. I don't just want to bond with more people I want to bond with everyone I meet. I want to bond with people all the time and never have an awkward moment. And I want them all to reciprocate when I know that sometimes my friendly smiles will be ignored and I know that connecting, or trying to, will inevitably be awkward at times.
Another thing I want to do is matchmaking. Because I still believe in romantic love very much I'm just somewhat tired of searching on my own behalf. I know so many great people and it would be wonderful to help them find someone to love. But I've tried a few matches already with no luck. But that's bound to happen and it only takes one great match to make it worthwhile. I also don't really know how to go about match making. I have to get both people to agree but should I ask the girl first or the guy...? It helps if they are both on OkCupid already I think because then I could just ask one of them to look at the other's profile.
I wish I could make everyone feel that they are truly seen. I want them to know that I don't want anything from them. Rich does this so well, it seems like he always has something to say to everyone in the office and yet it never feels like just small talk. I wish I could do that but I'm not *that* extroverted. And I could maaybe imitate his behavior but how could I get it to feel as genuine as he does?
I (almost always) really like when people do the friendly shoulder touch but I'd feel awkward about doing it myself. Maybe it seems weirder coming from a young female? I associate it with someone older than me and usually male but not always. Maybe I just need practice and it shouldn't be too too scary if I start with my friends.
I already do have friends that I connect to. I already do smile at strangers. But I want more of that. Partly I think that's a good goal to want more of it. But partly I think that it's coming from that part of me that feels like I am never enough. I don't just want to bond with more people I want to bond with everyone I meet. I want to bond with people all the time and never have an awkward moment. And I want them all to reciprocate when I know that sometimes my friendly smiles will be ignored and I know that connecting, or trying to, will inevitably be awkward at times.
Another thing I want to do is matchmaking. Because I still believe in romantic love very much I'm just somewhat tired of searching on my own behalf. I know so many great people and it would be wonderful to help them find someone to love. But I've tried a few matches already with no luck. But that's bound to happen and it only takes one great match to make it worthwhile. I also don't really know how to go about match making. I have to get both people to agree but should I ask the girl first or the guy...? It helps if they are both on OkCupid already I think because then I could just ask one of them to look at the other's profile.