I just woke up...
Its nice to sleep late. I had a bad dream though, it was that Mark had sex with someone else because I had to work late and he was mad at me. And he didnt even care about doing it, it was horrible. It kinda made me in a bad mood because I was thinking about shit of the past..I cant help it sometimes..especially when I have a dream that brings back exact feelings Ive had before. I love Mark to death, everyone knows that. But sometimes I just get scared..It feels like everything is right, and I could be with him for the rest of my life and that would be the ideal situation..But I just think about those things every day of my life. They say time heals everything, and thats true, but I always think to myself, if he loves me as much as he says he does why would he fuck me over so bad? I know, everyone makes mistakes but..Christ.. I have to be honest when I say I would get married and start my life with him tomorrow if it werent for the things he did to me before. And I still feel like hes the one. I guess its just gonna take more time. Atleast I know for sure what I do feel, I know Im in love with him...Lucky bastard.
~L*nz
~L*nz