Sep 29, 2006 17:01
Ok...so I haven't posted on here in like a really long time. Let's see...what's happened since my last post. hmm...we started school (ughhh), swim season started back up, health problems got worse, I went to the ER because I had a really bad asthma attack and pretty much passed out in school, made some new friends, lost some because I found out they didn't really care about me, realized who my real friends were (just the one's I noticed were always there for me no matter what...if you're one of them you should know, or just ask me and I'll tell you), started ROTC...that's pretty fun I guess, my grandma died :-( and lots more stuff that I probably just can't think of right now. Lots of things have been going on and I've just been kinda preocupied with it all. When I got sent to the hospital that pretty much screwed up everything...I couldn't go to swim practice for a really long time so now I probably won't make it to county's cuz I've been out so much. It made everyone all worried about me for no reason and I hate that. My mom has been kind of a jerk since the middle of the summer...it's been pretty bad, most of you probably already know about it, but she's been making me feel really bad and its just been getting worse. I feel like I should just drop off the face of the earth sometimes...like it would be better than all of the things that I have to deal with right now. LOL...on a funnier note...there's this weird kid in my class...let's call him randolph since i didnt know his name and now its just so I dont have to use names.(lol...so here's a story for you mom...i know how much you love my stories) So randolph sits in front of me in my class, and one day he turns around and spells out "i love you" in sign language and I just sit there like...ooook. Then a few minutes later, he he looks at my feet and says "do your feet hurt?" and im like..."ummm, no, why?" and he says "cuz you've been running through my mind all day" At this point I'm just thinking...ook...you're weird. Then he turns around and says dont go anywhere after class I have to talk to you. So naturally after class, i run like hell...but he caught me and was like hey do you have a boyfriend, i say ummm no, and he says do you want to go out? and i sit there with some kinda crazy look on my face and he says thats ok you can get back to me tomorrow. Then after school...he finds me and im waiting for my bus and i ask him what hes doing there and he says im waiting and i say for what and he said for you to answer me lol...so i say you told me i had until tomorrow and i run away. Then the next day in class he turns around and says "soo what's your answer...and i sorta just grab my water bottle and start drinking" and apparently picking up a water bottle and drinking it means "yes of course ill go out with you, i love you!!" in weird guy language...so he thought we were going out. I felt bad about that...I knew i probably shouldnt lead him on like that lol. so i decided i should end it. So i go into the classroom and he starts talking to me...you know...calling me new g/f like i dont even have a name. And i kinda just went off on him. I was like...why did you ask me out? you dont know anything about me, i dont know anything about you, heck..i dont even know your name...so yea i dont think we should go out. And he just kinda gave me this sad face for a long time and didnt say anything about it. Until the next day...when he just said yea! ur my ex...i can tell people that and im like okie doke...and that was pretty much the end of that, except for him still trying to hug me and singing spice girl songs to me every once in awhile lol. I feel bad that someone liked me and i didnt feel the same way...but hey...it happens to everyone. Like me right now, but its like everytime i think i like someone new I always end up thinking of a certain other person. I just can never take my mind off him, it sucks because I know he doesn't feel the same way but he still occupies all of my thoughts and i just wish i could stop thinking about him. But I know that won't happen so w/e. well i guess im done wasting all of your time with this lol...now ya just have to wait for my next extremely long and boring post...yay!
Love always,
Linswald