Eeergh
So I'm either three things at any given time:
1) good with posting on my myspace blog
2)good with posting on my livejournal
3)completely forgetting about both.
lol. Never one and two at the same time, too! So, I've come back to update my LJ. ;) Wonder how long it will last this time?
Thursday, April 06, 2006
my life is confusing
So I decided I'd post in here.
But what the heck am I going to say?
Oh! I know! Hi, Geoff!
And, to everyone who isn't Geoff, I randomly met him online today, and we're friends now. (?) Yay for new friends!
So how's my life? (In other words, do you really feel like being confused?)
Well, I'm done blabbing. G'night, all.
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
the random wandering post of randomness
Category: Life
FARAMIR: Would you have my plain answer?
EOWYN: I would.
FARAMIR: Then, Éowyn of Rohan, I say to you that you are beautiful. (Chapter V: The Steward and the King (The Return of the King, Book Six) )
^for a friend whose Fire may well be Ice. ;) You know who you are.^
Have you ever felt much too entangeled with everyone else? Like, you can't let go of anything, like everyone's problems are becoming interwoven with yours, until you don't know if you're crying for yourself or for a friend?
Not that I've been able to cry lately. My emotions bring no reaction anymore, just a dull sort of fading feeling. When I'm sad, I'm sad, and I cover it up, as usual, but... it's hard to explain. It's like the feelings are so big that they're small. Like the pain hurts so much that you don't cry. Meh. I'm just confusing myself.
My dreams are dark. As usual. Except, I am like about to die in all of them until.... wham. "Meg it's time to go to school!!!" etc, etc. I don't really know why I'm telling all of you this. I mean, yes, let's just worry everyone over Megan's sucidal tendencies, shall we? lol.
See what I mean? I just get sarcastic about what hurts. It's like I'm becoming a Vulcan. Ick. I hate that idea. I guess all of my hiding stuff is bringing this about, though......
I'm thinking of starting a dream journal. Not in a weird, paranormal sort of way, just a journal to see what the heck is going on in my subconcious. I mean, my brain is CONFUSING, man. VERY CONFUSING.
Oh and I saw the Matrix. FINALLY.
......wow am I in love with that movie. Good times, good times. Gonna go watch more of it this weekend with Taylor. Fun fun.
Oh, and btw, I'm planning a LARP. Woot! And... I'm starting a podcast. :) Good times.
And then..... to the not so good times. OK. Here we go. My friend is being stupid about a bunch of friends that I either know or don't know who like her ever though she doesn't like them but they're still fun SO she just goes along w/ it while hurting forementioned peoples and some people on the side who likes those peoples, and she confuses all of her friends and gets them a bit irritated at her coldheartedness which has showed before in lesser numbers and are now being brought up in my bitterness about it and I'm getting close to risking a friendship because of this whole stupid deal and I no longer know who to beleive or TRUST!
AHHHHHHH!!!
*deep breath*
Got it? Good.
:) Good night, world.
1) good with posting on my myspace blog
2)good with posting on my livejournal
3)completely forgetting about both.
lol. Never one and two at the same time, too! So, I've come back to update my LJ. ;) Wonder how long it will last this time?
Thursday, April 06, 2006
my life is confusing
So I decided I'd post in here.
But what the heck am I going to say?
Oh! I know! Hi, Geoff!
And, to everyone who isn't Geoff, I randomly met him online today, and we're friends now. (?) Yay for new friends!
So how's my life? (In other words, do you really feel like being confused?)
Well, I'm done blabbing. G'night, all.
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
the random wandering post of randomness
Category: Life
FARAMIR: Would you have my plain answer?
EOWYN: I would.
FARAMIR: Then, Éowyn of Rohan, I say to you that you are beautiful. (Chapter V: The Steward and the King (The Return of the King, Book Six) )
^for a friend whose Fire may well be Ice. ;) You know who you are.^
Have you ever felt much too entangeled with everyone else? Like, you can't let go of anything, like everyone's problems are becoming interwoven with yours, until you don't know if you're crying for yourself or for a friend?
Not that I've been able to cry lately. My emotions bring no reaction anymore, just a dull sort of fading feeling. When I'm sad, I'm sad, and I cover it up, as usual, but... it's hard to explain. It's like the feelings are so big that they're small. Like the pain hurts so much that you don't cry. Meh. I'm just confusing myself.
My dreams are dark. As usual. Except, I am like about to die in all of them until.... wham. "Meg it's time to go to school!!!" etc, etc. I don't really know why I'm telling all of you this. I mean, yes, let's just worry everyone over Megan's sucidal tendencies, shall we? lol.
See what I mean? I just get sarcastic about what hurts. It's like I'm becoming a Vulcan. Ick. I hate that idea. I guess all of my hiding stuff is bringing this about, though......
I'm thinking of starting a dream journal. Not in a weird, paranormal sort of way, just a journal to see what the heck is going on in my subconcious. I mean, my brain is CONFUSING, man. VERY CONFUSING.
Oh and I saw the Matrix. FINALLY.
......wow am I in love with that movie. Good times, good times. Gonna go watch more of it this weekend with Taylor. Fun fun.
Oh, and btw, I'm planning a LARP. Woot! And... I'm starting a podcast. :) Good times.
And then..... to the not so good times. OK. Here we go. My friend is being stupid about a bunch of friends that I either know or don't know who like her ever though she doesn't like them but they're still fun SO she just goes along w/ it while hurting forementioned peoples and some people on the side who likes those peoples, and she confuses all of her friends and gets them a bit irritated at her coldheartedness which has showed before in lesser numbers and are now being brought up in my bitterness about it and I'm getting close to risking a friendship because of this whole stupid deal and I no longer know who to beleive or TRUST!
AHHHHHHH!!!
*deep breath*
Got it? Good.
:) Good night, world.