Would like to kick him.
1) Went finally shopping. Whee! Had fun, bought weird clothing, ate yummy baggles. I have now two new jeans (as if I didn't have four before...) one of which is fairly freaky (will get pictures), two shirts which are very nice, lots of socks, a LOVELY velvety jacket from Vietnam I absolutely worship and a very short skirt. I never had a skirt that was wider than longer before.
2) I'm studying for the rest of the weekend. *mutters and complains and glares at History notes*
3) I am so angry at Jerk.
When I think objectively about it I would kick myself.
What it looked like: "I still love her [now ex-girlfriend], but this is not working and it killed us both. I cried so much the afternoon after", he said, and I felt guilty because I was thinking he might be interested in another girl. That didn't stop him from acting all interested in me (old times die hard while looking abashed, though. I really was worried.
What I didn't know: Reproduction of bit of msn convo with Lali:
Lin: By the way, Jerk broke up with GirlA.
Lali: I know! But what you don't know is that he snogged GirlB-he-met-at-a-party (and when asked back then said he was not interested in).
...
I wonder how he does it to hurt me simply by not saying things.
Don't know what to do, really, since I am not consciously interested in him and it still hurts. I wish there was someone else I could think of at moments like this, but alas, there really are no interesting boys who are interested in me. *hides under table*
Plans: Call Lali and maybe J because they undestand me and whine. Study history. Study History of Art. Read. Stop whining to random people who happens to be online (which would be COM!Remusplayer, a very nice person who managed to cheer me up ^^).
Tell him something tomorrow, but I really don't know what. I figured I'd start by "So how's GirlB?" because I really hate him not telling me things like that and I want him to know I ALWAYS manage to get that information, but then...?
Thinks would be fine if I wasn't attracted to him.
Please, please, let me know someone I can be attracted to without having to go through this AGAIN.
2) I'm studying for the rest of the weekend. *mutters and complains and glares at History notes*
3) I am so angry at Jerk.
When I think objectively about it I would kick myself.
What it looked like: "I still love her [now ex-girlfriend], but this is not working and it killed us both. I cried so much the afternoon after", he said, and I felt guilty because I was thinking he might be interested in another girl. That didn't stop him from acting all interested in me (old times die hard while looking abashed, though. I really was worried.
What I didn't know: Reproduction of bit of msn convo with Lali:
Lin: By the way, Jerk broke up with GirlA.
Lali: I know! But what you don't know is that he snogged GirlB-he-met-at-a-party (and when asked back then said he was not interested in).
...
I wonder how he does it to hurt me simply by not saying things.
Don't know what to do, really, since I am not consciously interested in him and it still hurts. I wish there was someone else I could think of at moments like this, but alas, there really are no interesting boys who are interested in me. *hides under table*
Plans: Call Lali and maybe J because they undestand me and whine. Study history. Study History of Art. Read. Stop whining to random people who happens to be online (which would be COM!Remusplayer, a very nice person who managed to cheer me up ^^).
Tell him something tomorrow, but I really don't know what. I figured I'd start by "So how's GirlB?" because I really hate him not telling me things like that and I want him to know I ALWAYS manage to get that information, but then...?
Thinks would be fine if I wasn't attracted to him.
Please, please, let me know someone I can be attracted to without having to go through this AGAIN.