i haven't cried in a while. today was a first.

[linsieloulou]

it's weeks like these when i miss caleb and patrick more than ever.
i could've used the advice& hanging out at odd hours in the morning on school nights.
if i cant go to PA for christmas, i might run away to memphis for a while.

this week has been hell.
and not just for me, for a lot of people.
it might get better sunday, or possibly worse.
hopefully the first.

i don't want to do what i feel is needed.
i just want to be treated like i actually matter, and that he actually wants to talk/spend time with me.
i haven't been getting that. and it hurts. a lot