Jesus, Jesus in the Sky, Answer me please before i die
People think I have a good life. that i dont have problems. Well i wish i could say that. But u ppl dont kno nethin bout wut ur talkin bout. I have problems and troubles and they love to come in like 5's. One thing after another...Then once i blow up...the next day it gets better. Today I dunno how i am...i'm just so confused. One part of me is arguing with another part of me telling me to be angry. Another part of me is telling me to be sad. And the last part is saying for me to be happy. And they all have very good points as to why i should be that way. But b/c of this i dont feel anything. I'm so mad at life ryt now. Its so stressful. It needs to die. I hate 2005.
I was thinking bout the house that we hafta do for ss class...and i aint gunna do it. Theres nothing i want in a house. I'm happy with a roof over my head and a bedroom and bathroom. I dont need a gym in my house. I dont need a BIg entertainment room in my house. The only thing i want i cant have. I want a closer relationship with God. I want to feel His presence. But i dont. I;ve tried many many tyms. But i cant. I've prayed about it..Kinda hard to pray wen u dont feel anything or anyone. And I've tried reading the Bible but to me its a bunch of gibberish.
How can u love and hate the same thing equally as much? I hate life..but I couldnt dare leave it since i love it too much. I feel stuck in a place that I cant leave. I dont miss anything anymore. I dont miss my past...i feel like i'm reliving my past.
I've got to be the worst friend ever. I always seem to lose them cuz i care too much. I try being nice..but because of my niceness i lose them. I remember The one tym i let my real anger get to me was wen i punched one of my best friends cuz she hit me. Since then, we havent rlly been close.
UGH UGH UGH UGh i just wonder whos next? Who's the next friend I'll lose?
I'm not in a happy mood today. Well i was but now i cant smile. I keep yelling at my bro and lil cuz. They keep horsing around. Ok, I'm stopping myself from swearing...I type it out then delete it and write it a different way. I'm So confused ryt now.
I was thinking bout the house that we hafta do for ss class...and i aint gunna do it. Theres nothing i want in a house. I'm happy with a roof over my head and a bedroom and bathroom. I dont need a gym in my house. I dont need a BIg entertainment room in my house. The only thing i want i cant have. I want a closer relationship with God. I want to feel His presence. But i dont. I;ve tried many many tyms. But i cant. I've prayed about it..Kinda hard to pray wen u dont feel anything or anyone. And I've tried reading the Bible but to me its a bunch of gibberish.
How can u love and hate the same thing equally as much? I hate life..but I couldnt dare leave it since i love it too much. I feel stuck in a place that I cant leave. I dont miss anything anymore. I dont miss my past...i feel like i'm reliving my past.
I've got to be the worst friend ever. I always seem to lose them cuz i care too much. I try being nice..but because of my niceness i lose them. I remember The one tym i let my real anger get to me was wen i punched one of my best friends cuz she hit me. Since then, we havent rlly been close.
UGH UGH UGH UGh i just wonder whos next? Who's the next friend I'll lose?
I'm not in a happy mood today. Well i was but now i cant smile. I keep yelling at my bro and lil cuz. They keep horsing around. Ok, I'm stopping myself from swearing...I type it out then delete it and write it a different way. I'm So confused ryt now.