life is moving...but i remain standing...
eh...been thinkin alot today. I'm not myself ryt now...well actually i dont kno if i am myself..but i will be ok...i need to be ok.
I just wrote a whole bunch of things...but deleted it. I dunno. i jus cant go baq to worcester...ya'kno? I realized that i may of had some of the best friends there that would always make me smile...but i dunno. i jus cant go baq there.
But i wish i wasnt in a town. Dont fit in here. Too much drama for my soul.
I dont really belong anywhere....I wish i was back in worcester...at my old house. in my old bed. with my old friends. I wish i was back in elementary skewl with no worries or troubles. when i had my best friend baq. When all this life...i owned MY life. but Now...i lost my life...its hiding pretty good too. cuz i havent found it yet. Why is it that i feel more love from ppl on drugs and smokers than i do with ppl who arent on that? Tell me that. And my friends that smoked or did drugs..they never once presured me into that. even though i've hung around them while they did that. and i dunno
I dont get suicidal ppl. I mean, me and this girl were talkin about it...and she was 100% correct. Suicide does take care of it all...for the person who committed. But do they rlly hate there friends and family that much that they'd rather have them go through the pain? me? I couldnt do that. If only i knew of one person that loved me in this world..i couldnt do it. I cant stand seeing ppl hurt. So i guess suicidal ppl are really coldblooded ppl. that theyd rather see other ppl die because of them. they are hurting so many ppl than they kno.
I am done
I just wrote a whole bunch of things...but deleted it. I dunno. i jus cant go baq to worcester...ya'kno? I realized that i may of had some of the best friends there that would always make me smile...but i dunno. i jus cant go baq there.
But i wish i wasnt in a town. Dont fit in here. Too much drama for my soul.
I dont really belong anywhere....I wish i was back in worcester...at my old house. in my old bed. with my old friends. I wish i was back in elementary skewl with no worries or troubles. when i had my best friend baq. When all this life...i owned MY life. but Now...i lost my life...its hiding pretty good too. cuz i havent found it yet. Why is it that i feel more love from ppl on drugs and smokers than i do with ppl who arent on that? Tell me that. And my friends that smoked or did drugs..they never once presured me into that. even though i've hung around them while they did that. and i dunno
I dont get suicidal ppl. I mean, me and this girl were talkin about it...and she was 100% correct. Suicide does take care of it all...for the person who committed. But do they rlly hate there friends and family that much that they'd rather have them go through the pain? me? I couldnt do that. If only i knew of one person that loved me in this world..i couldnt do it. I cant stand seeing ppl hurt. So i guess suicidal ppl are really coldblooded ppl. that theyd rather see other ppl die because of them. they are hurting so many ppl than they kno.
I am done