I always envisioned jumping and squealing--or at least smiling.

[linnyp]

I feel like I'm watching a movie, but it's not convincing enough to elicit empathy. Everytime the acceptance letter comes, I just open it and set it aside. A few days later my parents find it and act excited, but rather confused that I didn't share my "good news." They think I should feel happy, but I don't really know what I should feel. I don't want to think about college at all, but it consumes my thoughts!
This is what my brain looks like:
WeLLesLeY***...!!gonZaGA...?...bERkELeY!...$...UC sAn ! dieGO....*uC dAviS...aMeRIcaN????