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iokay if you read taylor's journal. she prob' has said everything that i would have said. thank you sweetie. you read my mind.
Nick you're such an inconsiderate asshole player! You don't ever think do you, Nick? You basically tell me everything and you prob' think that i would forget it wouldn't you? I think not. i remember how you told you that you weren't ready for a commitment yet - when i liked you. i remember how you told me that you didn't want to date anyone because of grades and school. You didn't even stick with you word you fucking asshole. You - you don't even know how pissed I am at you right now. I am way beyond pissed. If you say something then keep your word. Or at lleast TRY to that is. Just because you have so much fun with one chick - you think all of the sudden you're liking her. Then you go and ask her out because you like her. But, I can remember ONCE you didn't do that, Nick. Instead you chose to lead this girl on for who god how long. You hurt her bad. And once after you realized it, you didn't even have the heart to say you're sorry. until months later. do you remembe who this girl was nick? if you don't...i'll be GLADLY to let you know. that girl was me. YOUR FREAKING FRIEND NICK! YOUR FUCKING REALLY CLOSE GOOD FRIEND. and you know what you did that hurt me so fucking much? EVERY DAMN THING. didn't even say sorry until when was it .. april? weeks before my birthday. but...Erin told you to say sorry to me...and i somewhat told you to say sorry to me. you prob' dont even mean it nick. Nick, you have changed once again. and you have no idea how bad that hurts me. i lost you once before nick. don't you remember? and guess what...i lost you again. i lost my only best guy friend that i have. I don't know what you have to do to make me forgive you - but i dont know if sorry is going to be enough this time nick. You hurt so many girls that have liked you or that you liked. And it sucks ass to feel that much pain because I know what it feels like. Cause you put me through it ... not just once. but plenty of times. My mistake besides that thing that i did...my other mistake that i have made..was ever liking you more than just a friend and being involved with you. - talking, hugging, laughing, hanging out, getting so much closer as friends with you. all that....that was a mistake that i made. and i can be one complete dumbass to fall back to you. oh wait. i did already. when you supposely said "sorry" to me. i fucking hate you nick. no matter how many times you said you cared and stuff...now i think you're lying. you hurt TOO many people.
++ i have once again..lost my best friend...and it sucks ass.
++ taylor - you're the greatest