What can I write about God?
I want to write about God.
But what can I write about God, and have it be read and understood?
What can I write about God, and still keep all my friends? God only knows I've alienated enough of you as it is.
Most importantly, what can I write about God, and honor this Being, my Beloved, with the truth?
The truth is that God is as close as your own hands--that no matter who you are or what you believe, you nonetheless have a direct connection to God just by virtue of the fact that you are human.
And the truth is that God does not fit neatly into anyone's theology. He refuses to. In fact, He cannot, because no human mind can ever completely grasp all that God is. (I'm barely scratching the surface here.)
The truth is that God loves all without judgment--loves every living being regardless of what we have done, or whether we even believe in Him at all. Loves every one of us so much that we cannot possibly grow big enough to hold all His love.
And the truth is that God brings the illusion of judgment into our lives for our good--to teach us, to draw us closer to Herself.
I call myself a Christian on occasion because I really do believe Jesus is God. But anyone who knows me knows that I am, more than anything else, a blasphemer. Before, I was a blasphemer because I liked to say "fuck" and "goddamn." Now I am a blasphemer because I am quite willing to say things about God that might make you uncomfortable and will *definitely* make the Church uncomfortable.
The truth is that God can be found just as surely by walking a pagan path, or a Hindu path, or a Buddhist path, or even an atheist path. I know this, not because I have read about it, but because I have done it. I've made contact with God by doing a shamanic journey, by chanting Hare Krishna or Nam-Myoho-Renge-Kyo, by singing the Battle Hymn of the Republic, by doing a rite of initiation into the Divine Feminine, by studying evolution, and by simply writing out my worries on a piece of paper and then waiting for the answer.
Each time, it was the same God.
Growing up in a Christian family, all my life I knew *about* God, but when I finally met God, it was nothing at all like what I had been told. Had it been true, the things I'd been told about God, I would have immediately died and gone to hell when I did what I did--practicing witchcraft! Instead, I found myself reborn and free--free from the notion that God created me to live a miserable life at the bottom of the barrel, never allowed to have my desires fulfilled because all my desires are sinful, forced to live in eternal fear in the name of virtue, forced to live in eternal shame because I don't have a cock, and not allowed to make a decent wage because poverty is the only way to get into Heaven.
I found, instead, that Heaven is right here on Earth--and that we already have everything necessary to create it. Because the only thing that is necessary is God, and we can have as much of Him as we are willing to let into our lives. Everything in life can be touched by holiness if we only let it.
And that is why I write this. Because I know that I can't possibly be the only person alive who has been taught a lie about God.
If you have been taught a lie, you will know this because whatever you were taught will not feel true to you deep inside. If that is how you feel, go to the Source to find the truth! Do whatever it takes. Whatever path looks good to you, walk it, for you were called to it. Take it all the way--and if it leads you to a different path, then jump! Ruthlessly discard anything that is not the truth--even if others tell you it's sacred.
I expect that your truth will differ from mine. I expect that your beliefs will be your own. I have not come here to convert anyone to anything--hell, I expect that by saying what I have said here, I have likely ruffled some feathers, and someone probably wants to convert *me* right about now. I have not come for that either, so I've disabled comments. I have come only to give those of you who desire it a little nudge--the nudge that sets the ball rolling over the hill--towards becoming on the outside what you already are deep inside.