hmm curious
So I was rereading some of my older entries and I read an entry that doesn't seem all to long ago but in reality it was nearly 2 years ago. It's my EFY take 2 entry posted on like December 6th it's all about my faith in the Gospel, my faith in the Book of Mormon and how I really really desired and wanted to go on a mission! But then something happened that something was me praying about whether I should quit working at Hollywood or not, well the answer I received was yes quit Hollywood. However I liked working there my friends worked there and I was afraid of something new, something unknown so I stayed working there. It was only a few weeks later(like 2 maybe 3) that things there went downhill very quickly. I went down hill very quickly.
This situation is familiar
Before I turned 19 I had gained a desire to repent and go on a mission, mostly because of the amazing seminary class I was in, so I started working on that and actually my goal, life was looking up I had a really great job that was fun and interesting, it didn't pay too well but that was ok because I got to pretty much watch movies all day and the Store Manager I worked for was awesome, I had even been able to get a girlfriend thanks to Stephanie Wild and she was alright. Our relationship came to the point where she suggested I pray about it, so I did and the answer I got was a very strong No! However I had grown a liking to this girl and decided to rationalize that answer away. It was that very same weekend that we got into trouble and my life literally turned upside down.
So if one were to analyze these 2 experiances one would come to find out that A) im an idiot and B) Heavenly Father does care about us and knows whats in store for us so when one receives and answer, it's in our best interest to follow that answer.
But really I had completely forgotten how excited I was for going on a mission but due to circumstances that I totally could have avoided it delayed me a year, almost completely so where am I going with this post? No clue Im just typing things out so I can think about them logically. and I posted it here on LJ because well it's where I post all my stuff like this and writing hurts..and its very sloppy and when I get stumped its really so much harder to write what im thinking.
Anyways I truely don't know if anyone read this anymore. But really I only updated it for Jordan and Sydney. Looking at past entries proves this and also proves that we used to be somewhat good friends? Then what happened there as far as I recall we were friends and then shannah came into the picture then a few months later we weren't friends.
I don't think it's stretching it in the slightest to say that shannah is responsible for the slow and painful degradation of our friendships. Furthermore I recall everything was going well between Sydney and I up until I told shannah that I had a crush on Sydney then had I thought about the situation it would have reminded me of numerous occastions back in High School except this time melanie was shannah and sydney was steffany.
I saw shannah last saturday she told me, among other things that Sydney never actually liked me and had always hated me because all I wanted was to have sex with, and marry Sydney which was a lie I had a generally good time with Sydney and I thought her family was awesome I even though most of her friends were awesome. So again why am I posting this on the internet? Well again to logically think out, through typing some events and if possible have Sydney and Jordan read this and know that it sucks what happened and since our falling out was very anti-climatic to share my point of view on what happened and why. Perhaps you guys might think that it was all my fault and if so then whatever but imho Shannah is at least responisble for idiotic rumors and stupid gossip that changed the dynamics of our respective relationships.
Anyways things change for many different reasons I just felt like typing and this is what came out so there is at least a written record of my thoughts and feelings on a few different things. Well my rant is over and I should be in bed by now. So later I guess
This situation is familiar
Before I turned 19 I had gained a desire to repent and go on a mission, mostly because of the amazing seminary class I was in, so I started working on that and actually my goal, life was looking up I had a really great job that was fun and interesting, it didn't pay too well but that was ok because I got to pretty much watch movies all day and the Store Manager I worked for was awesome, I had even been able to get a girlfriend thanks to Stephanie Wild and she was alright. Our relationship came to the point where she suggested I pray about it, so I did and the answer I got was a very strong No! However I had grown a liking to this girl and decided to rationalize that answer away. It was that very same weekend that we got into trouble and my life literally turned upside down.
So if one were to analyze these 2 experiances one would come to find out that A) im an idiot and B) Heavenly Father does care about us and knows whats in store for us so when one receives and answer, it's in our best interest to follow that answer.
But really I had completely forgotten how excited I was for going on a mission but due to circumstances that I totally could have avoided it delayed me a year, almost completely so where am I going with this post? No clue Im just typing things out so I can think about them logically. and I posted it here on LJ because well it's where I post all my stuff like this and writing hurts..and its very sloppy and when I get stumped its really so much harder to write what im thinking.
Anyways I truely don't know if anyone read this anymore. But really I only updated it for Jordan and Sydney. Looking at past entries proves this and also proves that we used to be somewhat good friends? Then what happened there as far as I recall we were friends and then shannah came into the picture then a few months later we weren't friends.
I don't think it's stretching it in the slightest to say that shannah is responsible for the slow and painful degradation of our friendships. Furthermore I recall everything was going well between Sydney and I up until I told shannah that I had a crush on Sydney then had I thought about the situation it would have reminded me of numerous occastions back in High School except this time melanie was shannah and sydney was steffany.
I saw shannah last saturday she told me, among other things that Sydney never actually liked me and had always hated me because all I wanted was to have sex with, and marry Sydney which was a lie I had a generally good time with Sydney and I thought her family was awesome I even though most of her friends were awesome. So again why am I posting this on the internet? Well again to logically think out, through typing some events and if possible have Sydney and Jordan read this and know that it sucks what happened and since our falling out was very anti-climatic to share my point of view on what happened and why. Perhaps you guys might think that it was all my fault and if so then whatever but imho Shannah is at least responisble for idiotic rumors and stupid gossip that changed the dynamics of our respective relationships.
Anyways things change for many different reasons I just felt like typing and this is what came out so there is at least a written record of my thoughts and feelings on a few different things. Well my rant is over and I should be in bed by now. So later I guess