Current musings
Feeling all calm and good after party last night. Thanks H & P. Family energy is sooo soft and good. Mom's on the phone (forever) with Ingrid, talking like Michele or Laura and I talk - about everything and nottin. Thank GOD I am back in the land of real friendships. Outside is layered with snow and I can see a pink rose with a tuft of white from where I'm sitting. Today I broke through a frigid part of me called jealousy and looked at S's flickr photos where I know he has photos of his girlfriend. She looks nice enough and I am surprisingly unaffected - ok, so he has a g/f and she looks innocent and sweet. Guess he has and always had good taste. Argh though, that all those years of building a relationship has to be put aside. Good thing the new guy is coming soon (wherever he may be). Realized today that my get up of choice is a long dress with boots while walking through the forest.