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Tommarrow is the big day... the day I go into Khol's from 6:00 pm to 10:00 pm and do orientation. 4 hours of 'learning' joy. I'm excited, and a bit nervous too. What if I suck and they say "Ew, go away we no pay you ... buh bai!" I doubt that'll happen, cause I don't think I'm that incompitent... but you never know.
Recently, I've been feeling something Becky posted about earlier. I feel... no, I know some of my best friends are ones that I've come to be aquainted via the internet. And I want to hang out with them. Just go out wander around and talk with them for a few hours without any other types of distractions. Though once I have my celly (soon! Squeee) I'll be able to call most whenever I please (within reason) and talk with them, but it's different. I wanna DO stuffs with em. Don't even begin to ask me what, cause I don't know.. It's the not "what" that's important anywho. It's the being able to do it... bleh.
I've been dwelling for a very long time on the stuff of me that I've lost... and I feel that I've lost even more dwelling upon it... I'd like to be able to find what I've lost, but I doubt that's possible now... I've lost so much. I could just build a new me, ne? Start from scratch .... Heh, probally not from scratch, but whatever.
Heh... remembering an old post where I mentioned the ceasing of RO playing and I made a comment of "leveling Lance" instead of my priest ... so I guess getting this job means I achieved a level up? :P Wonder if reading this will confuse Becky again ^.^
Talked to Nina earlier, and thought about moving out again. I think I finally just decided to stay where I'm at, save my monnies and use em for college living instead of finding an apartment, cause that'll only push schooling back more ... and I do want to go to college. Also talked about Becky. Her move date keeps getting pushed back. I don't want to see her go, but I feel... I dunno, sad(?), that she has to keep postponing it.
If there was anything of "me" before that I want ... I'd like the ability to sit and read a book, and enjoy it.... I haven't read much of anything since Rebecca ;-; That was Senior English too. Kind of sad ... I have a few books available for reading, but I just can't seem to pick one up and being with a story.
Bleh, gonna go out ... get some air .. or somethin.
Recently, I've been feeling something Becky posted about earlier. I feel... no, I know some of my best friends are ones that I've come to be aquainted via the internet. And I want to hang out with them. Just go out wander around and talk with them for a few hours without any other types of distractions. Though once I have my celly (soon! Squeee) I'll be able to call most whenever I please (within reason) and talk with them, but it's different. I wanna DO stuffs with em. Don't even begin to ask me what, cause I don't know.. It's the not "what" that's important anywho. It's the being able to do it... bleh.
I've been dwelling for a very long time on the stuff of me that I've lost... and I feel that I've lost even more dwelling upon it... I'd like to be able to find what I've lost, but I doubt that's possible now... I've lost so much. I could just build a new me, ne? Start from scratch .... Heh, probally not from scratch, but whatever.
Heh... remembering an old post where I mentioned the ceasing of RO playing and I made a comment of "leveling Lance" instead of my priest ... so I guess getting this job means I achieved a level up? :P Wonder if reading this will confuse Becky again ^.^
Talked to Nina earlier, and thought about moving out again. I think I finally just decided to stay where I'm at, save my monnies and use em for college living instead of finding an apartment, cause that'll only push schooling back more ... and I do want to go to college. Also talked about Becky. Her move date keeps getting pushed back. I don't want to see her go, but I feel... I dunno, sad(?), that she has to keep postponing it.
If there was anything of "me" before that I want ... I'd like the ability to sit and read a book, and enjoy it.... I haven't read much of anything since Rebecca ;-; That was Senior English too. Kind of sad ... I have a few books available for reading, but I just can't seem to pick one up and being with a story.
Bleh, gonna go out ... get some air .. or somethin.