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Sometimes... I feel as if those around me are really unhappy. Like, they would rather be with someone else. Blah. Maybe it's the chocolate? Maybe I just think about things too much? I don't know. Maybe I was just too happy today... I guess. I should really try to be more serious about things, like I said I would. It's just... bleh. I had been having a pretty good day. Sometimes... I wish I just didn't take certain classes... especially if they're gonna make me feel like this.
Anyways... Chris is like... avoiding the simple task of saying "hi" to my mom. Because we all know saying "hi" is so scary. He could at least wave to her. Now she's under the impression that he's avoiding her or something. Geez. I hope he never wonders why she won't let me do anything with him except go to the movies. Kourtnei's mom has met Dillon. They even took him to Murray with them! Meh. Am I missing something? I know my mom is strict, but damn... she's not a freaking vampire.
It's amazing how many people you see at a gas station that you know.
Today I made a 76 on my Biology homework. >.< I forgot to do it. I filled out what I could, then Brittany filled out 6 of the questions for me, but I still made a bad grade. I'm never going to pull up my average if shit like this happens. I have tons of homework. And my mom wants me to do a bunch of clothes tonight. Blahhhhhh.
I hate school dances. I don't know why. I don't like crowds... or rap music. Bleh. Why do people even go? Besides.. I don't really "dance". I also hae spirit week. It's so gay. I hate a lot of things right now, but I'm not sure why.
Jealousy is a bad thing. It causes you to become moody. And feel bad. It's odd. It also makes you think things that you shouldn't think. Right now I want to seclude myself from the world. Tomorrow I should wear my isolation hat. I want to go listen to depressing music and lay on my bed, but I have homework, and chores. I hate my life. Why do I try so hard? I mean, yeah my future is important, but god. Am I over-achieving? Sometimes I wish I could just forget it all like some people do... but then I imagine myself 20 years from now... ending up exactly like my mother. I want so much more. BUt it seems the price I pay is insane, and not worth it. God I want to get out of Paris right now. I just wanna leave. Just start over.
My day was good... then bad. I hate life. Meh.
(And to think I was so happy about 4 hours ago.)
Anyways... Chris is like... avoiding the simple task of saying "hi" to my mom. Because we all know saying "hi" is so scary. He could at least wave to her. Now she's under the impression that he's avoiding her or something. Geez. I hope he never wonders why she won't let me do anything with him except go to the movies. Kourtnei's mom has met Dillon. They even took him to Murray with them! Meh. Am I missing something? I know my mom is strict, but damn... she's not a freaking vampire.
It's amazing how many people you see at a gas station that you know.
Today I made a 76 on my Biology homework. >.< I forgot to do it. I filled out what I could, then Brittany filled out 6 of the questions for me, but I still made a bad grade. I'm never going to pull up my average if shit like this happens. I have tons of homework. And my mom wants me to do a bunch of clothes tonight. Blahhhhhh.
I hate school dances. I don't know why. I don't like crowds... or rap music. Bleh. Why do people even go? Besides.. I don't really "dance". I also hae spirit week. It's so gay. I hate a lot of things right now, but I'm not sure why.
Jealousy is a bad thing. It causes you to become moody. And feel bad. It's odd. It also makes you think things that you shouldn't think. Right now I want to seclude myself from the world. Tomorrow I should wear my isolation hat. I want to go listen to depressing music and lay on my bed, but I have homework, and chores. I hate my life. Why do I try so hard? I mean, yeah my future is important, but god. Am I over-achieving? Sometimes I wish I could just forget it all like some people do... but then I imagine myself 20 years from now... ending up exactly like my mother. I want so much more. BUt it seems the price I pay is insane, and not worth it. God I want to get out of Paris right now. I just wanna leave. Just start over.
My day was good... then bad. I hate life. Meh.
(And to think I was so happy about 4 hours ago.)