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[linkinlover22]

oh dear.

so i've had "the conversation" with a total of 2 of my friends. should i have it with anyone else? i think not.

i got my schedule, and i have quite a few vacations, one every month or two. which is good for the first year, i'll need to come home the first year or two.

i'm not gonna lie, i'm really fucking scared.and that's all there

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[chokingrose]

No, my roomate isn't you plus or minus details. No one will ever be like you that I will ever meet. You have been one of the most amazing friends I have ever fucking had and I am eternally grateful for that. I know we haven't seen much of each other lately but I fully have you in my heart and my mind and things have been really fucking tough, and I'm not okay but I'm not ready to cry or talk it out yet. I need to fucking get my head back. Shayne was like my fucking drug in a sense. I don't know Sarah, I just want you to know how fucking special you are to me and to so many other people that you probably don't even realize. And remember what that woman said when you asked if it meant anything, and she said his reply was just that look like duh you dumbass of course. Because the things you do and who you are mean so much to the people that care about you and you should never ever fucking doubt yourself and I hope you know that. And I know that you're scared and that it's hard to have faith in the idea that things are going to be fine. But honestly no matter where you go you bring this fucking light to peoples lives and you're honest and understanding and so important and I want you to know that. I know I haven't been a good friend and I haven't been around I'm just so fucked up and so confused and I really wish that you feel in your heart that my love is there, because it is. Please please please just take things as they come and try not to stress it and you will get that beautiful life that you deserve, because you are more than worth it Sarah. Believe me, for all that we've been through together and apart I can see it in you that you can have everything you want, and that you work so fucking hard to get it. And you will. You will be fine. And if you ever aren't I'm still here for you even if you're far away physically. And there will be someone to hold you, and someone here or there to talk to. I love you with all of my heart.