Nov 24, 2005 19:37
Today consisted of nothing
I sat around and watched T.V.
all day all. I also texted a
couple of my friends and saiud
Happy Thanksgiving to them.
The thing that brightend my day
was how those people plus more
texted me saying Happy Thanksgiving
It felt nice knowing people that
I thought didnt care anymore
and didnt think of me anymore
were still there for me.
I tried to call Richard last night
It was bust;;I mean ever since
this new girl of his he hasn't been
the same. The sex must be pretty good.
I know they spent the night together
last night. I know because of
the comment he left her on myspace
and I quote;;
"hey baby sorry i havent called you yet or messaged you or anything but i came straight home and left again...but just to let you know i had a great time last night...and im sorry if i made you "uncomfertable" in any way...but i really am glad that you stayed and didnt try to drive last night and it felt great waking up and seeing you beautiful face with your beautiful green eyes looking back at me this morning...but i just want you to know...that i miss you....and oh check your in box ima be sending you a message..."
Meh it really sucks like honestly.
I sent him a message and I said
Well Goodbye Richard.
Lets be nothing;;
I heard it lasts longer.
I love the boy unforchantly.
I mean I could get over him easily
but I still feel the need to hold on
Maybe because he was my first
boy friend? Maybe because he was
my first love? I dont know. It
has to be something.
He has chanegd for her.
I dont know how to say it.
But he changes for every girl
friend he has ever had. If you
know what I mean. He changed
for me and was fake. He changed
for her and I can see right
through him. I just can't beleive
my eyes on how she has fallen
so fast. No wonder people looked
at me weird. I was in her position
before. So blind, so clueless.
So everytime I go to this boys
myspace I see a comment from this girl
and she is so pretty. Like a fucking god.
&&he comments her back saying hey beautiful
and at the end he says muah and the <33hearts
thingy<33 and his name. Why can't I get a
half way decent looking guy
and with the looks I want personality
Im feeling kinda shallow know. I need
the physical attraction thing.
I can't be with someone who
isn't a little bit cute.
You knwo what I mean? meh
I want to date someone again.
Im ready for a relationship.
<33KayBean