Today...
I found out that I practically failed Composition because one of the essays I didn't turn in. I was so crushed, for a while on campus I was walking around aimlessly, feeling really hit hard.
Well after a while I decided I needed to do something as a last hurrah before I came home to face my father and tell him what's going on. So I contacted Cathleen and asked if she and/or Nat would like to meet me at Rocky's. Well Nat would be picking up her brother by the time I'd be there but Cathleen was all up for it. So we met up there and I did my whole show-offy thing with Dance Maniax and DDR, lol. Then I started on teaching her more on DDR. I actually cured her from her returning-to-the-center problem, which was cool because she picked up on it so quick! Well she made some field runs after learning and seemed quite happy because she wasn't getting E's anymore. Hehehe! Well after a bit I decided to show her my action figure videos, which rocked because she was totally into it like I was! And she said she'd offer to let me look through her bag o' action figures for a next movie! Rawk! She called Natalie and told her to join us, so she showed up and I worked on getting Nat to fix her problem, too. These people have potential, I can see it. They like the game, and they seem to learn fast. I think I should really start that DDR clan and be their sensei. I could produce my own book of Zen DDR. :D
Well after a bit it was time to leave since they were going to see Sin City (hope that movie's good!) so we all went our separate ways. And then I got home. This was it. I was scared out of my mind.
My father came home and I told him about my Composition class failure. Oddly enough at the time, he wasn't getting upset. For the first time in a loooong time I didn't have to see this man let down from my own actions. He had explained to me that I'm working hard and there's nothing I can do to change the past. He told me not to worry about it and to just continue on doing what I'm doing. I was surprised speechless. But I'm glad I had told him what happened. Even through all the tears running down my face, all the pain I felt inside, all the guilt, there was releif afterwards. And I got my motivation back just like that! (Well, after taking a short nap to calm down, that is...) And I know how much my mother has had to put up with, dealing with my father telling about me slacking in college. And yet she kept a cool head this time around. Just typing this up is making my eyes water again. :')
I love my parents! <3<3<3
I've only 3 more weeks left, then the final exams, and I'm done with this semester. I hope I can go through my summer term without slipping up like every other school term in my life. Then again, I remember having summer school back in high school and I got an A because it was only one class. Easy. So I really hope that I can get through my fall '05 term without slipping up. I'm not making any promises, though, for things don't always change in the blink of an eye and I still need time before I can trust myself again. So for now I can be wishful and hopeful. That's enough for right now.
**takes another gulp of V8** Maaaan, this stuff is good!
Well I haven't really done any artistic self-improvements at all, just that one time I drew off of a sketch. I guess once the semester's over is when I'll really start my quest. Same goes for keyboard skills. And hangin' with everyone and doing things! I miss y'all!
DDR records:
B on Sakura [heavy], no bar.
B on Across the Nightmare [Oni], no bar.
A on Orion .78 (AMeuro Mix) [heavy], bar used for freestyle only.
B on Drop Out [heavy], bar on jumps.
A on Max 300 [standard], no bar. (Lately I've been losing my touch in this one, I dunno how...)
Just about halfway through Max 300 [heavy] (I need to learn to have control over my legs in the crazy parts)
Well after a while I decided I needed to do something as a last hurrah before I came home to face my father and tell him what's going on. So I contacted Cathleen and asked if she and/or Nat would like to meet me at Rocky's. Well Nat would be picking up her brother by the time I'd be there but Cathleen was all up for it. So we met up there and I did my whole show-offy thing with Dance Maniax and DDR, lol. Then I started on teaching her more on DDR. I actually cured her from her returning-to-the-center problem, which was cool because she picked up on it so quick! Well she made some field runs after learning and seemed quite happy because she wasn't getting E's anymore. Hehehe! Well after a bit I decided to show her my action figure videos, which rocked because she was totally into it like I was! And she said she'd offer to let me look through her bag o' action figures for a next movie! Rawk! She called Natalie and told her to join us, so she showed up and I worked on getting Nat to fix her problem, too. These people have potential, I can see it. They like the game, and they seem to learn fast. I think I should really start that DDR clan and be their sensei. I could produce my own book of Zen DDR. :D
Well after a bit it was time to leave since they were going to see Sin City (hope that movie's good!) so we all went our separate ways. And then I got home. This was it. I was scared out of my mind.
My father came home and I told him about my Composition class failure. Oddly enough at the time, he wasn't getting upset. For the first time in a loooong time I didn't have to see this man let down from my own actions. He had explained to me that I'm working hard and there's nothing I can do to change the past. He told me not to worry about it and to just continue on doing what I'm doing. I was surprised speechless. But I'm glad I had told him what happened. Even through all the tears running down my face, all the pain I felt inside, all the guilt, there was releif afterwards. And I got my motivation back just like that! (Well, after taking a short nap to calm down, that is...) And I know how much my mother has had to put up with, dealing with my father telling about me slacking in college. And yet she kept a cool head this time around. Just typing this up is making my eyes water again. :')
I love my parents! <3<3<3
I've only 3 more weeks left, then the final exams, and I'm done with this semester. I hope I can go through my summer term without slipping up like every other school term in my life. Then again, I remember having summer school back in high school and I got an A because it was only one class. Easy. So I really hope that I can get through my fall '05 term without slipping up. I'm not making any promises, though, for things don't always change in the blink of an eye and I still need time before I can trust myself again. So for now I can be wishful and hopeful. That's enough for right now.
**takes another gulp of V8** Maaaan, this stuff is good!
Well I haven't really done any artistic self-improvements at all, just that one time I drew off of a sketch. I guess once the semester's over is when I'll really start my quest. Same goes for keyboard skills. And hangin' with everyone and doing things! I miss y'all!
DDR records:
B on Sakura [heavy], no bar.
B on Across the Nightmare [Oni], no bar.
A on Orion .78 (AMeuro Mix) [heavy], bar used for freestyle only.
B on Drop Out [heavy], bar on jumps.
A on Max 300 [standard], no bar. (Lately I've been losing my touch in this one, I dunno how...)
Just about halfway through Max 300 [heavy] (I need to learn to have control over my legs in the crazy parts)