Hmm...
I feel like every time I make a post here, it begins with me apologizing for not posting in a while. So again, I am sorry that I am not as frequent an LJ person as I used to be, but with work and finally having IRL friends and stuff, I just don't spend nearly as much time in front of the computer as I used to. So I am sorry for that! Again, let me know if you'd like to friend me on Facebook, as I check that pretty frequently. Or you can check my blog, hochmonster.com, for art, which I am pretty decent at updating when I can.
Anyway, I just had some shit to muse about that I didn't want to put on FB, mostly because I would only want my boyfriend to read it if he was going make the effort to look for it. But I need to vent it because I am the sort of person who needs to talk through things, especially when they are confusing.
So long story short, my boyfriend's roommate told me that he had an OKCupid profile a long time ago when he was single and trying to find a new girlfriend after a bad breakup. So because I'm me, and also because he's kind of tight-lipped about his past, I bored-Googled his name to see if I could find it and laugh at any ridiculous pictures he might have posted there. The first hit was not OKCupid, though, or even Facebook, but an old-ass LJ entry that was posted by a person I quickly figured out was one of his ex-girlfriends. One who was, according to him, super crazy. I'm not sure that reading the entry really changed how I feel about him or made me worry about anything, as I can accept that everybody's relationships are going to be different with different people. But there were all these little nuggets of information that leave me a little curious about what really happened there. I guess it is because I am paranoid by nature that I'm quick to be like, 'OMG, are there warning signs here? Should I be on the look-out for some ill sign?' I know that is ridiculous, but sometimes shit like that is hard to ignore. I don't even know.
Obviously I will never tell him I found this. I don't want him to think that I was snooping, because I wasn't really trying to. It's just got me... thinking. Except for I don't really know about what.
Anyway, I just had some shit to muse about that I didn't want to put on FB, mostly because I would only want my boyfriend to read it if he was going make the effort to look for it. But I need to vent it because I am the sort of person who needs to talk through things, especially when they are confusing.
So long story short, my boyfriend's roommate told me that he had an OKCupid profile a long time ago when he was single and trying to find a new girlfriend after a bad breakup. So because I'm me, and also because he's kind of tight-lipped about his past, I bored-Googled his name to see if I could find it and laugh at any ridiculous pictures he might have posted there. The first hit was not OKCupid, though, or even Facebook, but an old-ass LJ entry that was posted by a person I quickly figured out was one of his ex-girlfriends. One who was, according to him, super crazy. I'm not sure that reading the entry really changed how I feel about him or made me worry about anything, as I can accept that everybody's relationships are going to be different with different people. But there were all these little nuggets of information that leave me a little curious about what really happened there. I guess it is because I am paranoid by nature that I'm quick to be like, 'OMG, are there warning signs here? Should I be on the look-out for some ill sign?' I know that is ridiculous, but sometimes shit like that is hard to ignore. I don't even know.
Obviously I will never tell him I found this. I don't want him to think that I was snooping, because I wasn't really trying to. It's just got me... thinking. Except for I don't really know about what.