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a lot happened since my last post. but the thing is more or less like i wrote at my homepage. all of a sudden those things that used to upset or annoy me stopped making sense. so complaining about them ended up in something pointless. however, i created this space exactly for the moments i would want to write like before. not necessarily in a stream of consciousness mode but being more the old me.
i took decisions i'm still not pretty sure about, and yes it's quite natural to think this way. we're not able to be so sure when making choices is the subject. like the song sings, _when i leave i don't know what i'm hoping to find / when i leave i don't know what i'm leaving behind..._ i also did things i'm not that proud of, most likely the opposite. but in chain of events it takes quite a long to inspect the pros and cons and later on make the final cut _is it final? dunno.
setting traps to myself, vaguing among the many life's ifs and elses, is something i try to avoid most. mostly because it leads nowhere. actually it makes things worse. could i be more patient? yes. could i be more intense? yes. could i be less picky? yes. as well as my counterpart. but i don't blame anyone. it was good while it lasted and this is the nice part of the story. yet i didn't place a definite end on it _mainly 'cause we never know happens next_, it doesn't mean i will run after her right now, asking for her forgiveness.
i wish the best. my hopes are that she does the same.
i took decisions i'm still not pretty sure about, and yes it's quite natural to think this way. we're not able to be so sure when making choices is the subject. like the song sings, _when i leave i don't know what i'm hoping to find / when i leave i don't know what i'm leaving behind..._ i also did things i'm not that proud of, most likely the opposite. but in chain of events it takes quite a long to inspect the pros and cons and later on make the final cut _is it final? dunno.
setting traps to myself, vaguing among the many life's ifs and elses, is something i try to avoid most. mostly because it leads nowhere. actually it makes things worse. could i be more patient? yes. could i be more intense? yes. could i be less picky? yes. as well as my counterpart. but i don't blame anyone. it was good while it lasted and this is the nice part of the story. yet i didn't place a definite end on it _mainly 'cause we never know happens next_, it doesn't mean i will run after her right now, asking for her forgiveness.
i wish the best. my hopes are that she does the same.