Almost 1:00
I realize it isn't too late, but for me I make it early nights. So these past few days have been days that I've spent on my own for the most part. I've gone to see my dad a few brief times. His mental state isn't perfect yet. They will move him into a new place after his foot heals up all the way so that he can get his mind straight. I don't know how long it will take, but i hope not too long. This is my home that i take care of with bills and such. It's kinda interesting how i have all of these things to think about and to fix around here, but i mean now that my dad is away i can do the things he puts off. One thing I realize is that no matter how old you get...after these years you always are trying to figure soemthing out. I watch movies and things that weren't clear to me before are now. There never is the end of the road. There's always something you are striving for in life and once you reach that goal another pops up. It may seem completely clear to you what i am saying, but there is something hidden inside that which is obvious. It might be that you never fully grow up. To be grown up is an illusion we place in front of youth to make them believe that when you reach a certain age you are grown up. But as long as you continue to learn and figure stuff out then you will always continue to grow up. Just based on writing this entry I am taking part in growing up partially. I saw an old friend the other day, her name was laura, and i knew her from my old H.S. I put her in another previous entry saying i hung out with her but i didn't go into much detail. She sure changed a bit since i remembered her. Funny how much people change when you don't see them for so long. She is still a friend, but not the one I remember her to be. She has a good heart, but i think it was tainted a bit cause she's angry at a lot of people. I didn't think a person like her could be so angry. She grew up and changed that way, i grew up and changed into who i am now...a good hearted person that took care of his sick father for the past 3 years. I think it was required for me to do this. I was ment to do these things in my life. They say "good things happen to good people"...well I'm waiting whoever is out there to have it come back to me.