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I'm afraid to be very close with a certain groups. For a while now, I had this talk with people how I like to keep my "sober" friends separate from my "drinking" friends. At first, I don't know how I came to this logic because it just made sense to me. But now that I been thinking about this excessively, I finally come to a conclusion. I'm still afraid to get close to a group of friends. I don't want a solid foundation. I don't want a clique. I'm afraid to rely heavily on people. I mean, what happens if drama unpredictably emerge out of nowhere and I lose that group of friends? I will have almost nobody. I don't know if it's a fear of loneliness or just the basic fear of being hurt again.
I have a closer connection and a better relationship with guys here. I prefer hanging out with boys. It's a unique friendship that I didn't have in high school I guess. But the kind of friendship I have with Karen or Carol is one that I find hard to find here. Oh well.
Okay, so I finished one final and I have 3 more to go. WOO. Bleh. I'm more than ready for Spring Break.
I have a closer connection and a better relationship with guys here. I prefer hanging out with boys. It's a unique friendship that I didn't have in high school I guess. But the kind of friendship I have with Karen or Carol is one that I find hard to find here. Oh well.
Okay, so I finished one final and I have 3 more to go. WOO. Bleh. I'm more than ready for Spring Break.