I guess it's time to go back to this now?
Facebook feels way too public. I like the idea of posting here better.
Been feeling a little dejected lately. Last 5 years were full. Lost my little sister in a tragic accident. Got engaged. Got my PhD. Got a postdoc at UNC. Fiancee left me. Looks like I'll be getting hired. Seems like I have no luck with women. Low self confidence. Feels like I'm always seeking validation from other people. My own worth lies outside of me, and I want it to be inside. I leak energy. I'm doing great things and I'm incredibly successful, but I don't feel that. I just feel like I'm jumping through hoops and there is so much work left to do that my accomplishments hardly matter. I know the perfect is the enemy of the good, and I don't feel this way all the time, but sometimes I have to get it all out there.
Been feeling a little dejected lately. Last 5 years were full. Lost my little sister in a tragic accident. Got engaged. Got my PhD. Got a postdoc at UNC. Fiancee left me. Looks like I'll be getting hired. Seems like I have no luck with women. Low self confidence. Feels like I'm always seeking validation from other people. My own worth lies outside of me, and I want it to be inside. I leak energy. I'm doing great things and I'm incredibly successful, but I don't feel that. I just feel like I'm jumping through hoops and there is so much work left to do that my accomplishments hardly matter. I know the perfect is the enemy of the good, and I don't feel this way all the time, but sometimes I have to get it all out there.