Try, As I Might - I'm A Fool In A Losing Fight.

[lingerinthedark]

Is this payback? Because now I know how it feels, ok? Now I get it. And I was wrong. But you didn't need to show me. You didn't need to make me feel any worse.

You really got a hold on me...

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[gingerhaole]

I feel like this has nothing to do with me, but history has shown us that I'm often oblivious and causing headache, so... if there's something I can do, let me know. If you just want to blow off steam, I'd be really happy to hear it, and if you'd rather not, that's alright.

[lingerinthedark]

No, no. This was not directed at you. It's pretty true that I have been down about 'us' lately. I'm not sure if I'm been keeping that a secret, or if you knew. But I have.

And that's why it really cheers me up that you even noticed. Thankyou, Lily, for restoring my faith. And I'd be happy to blow off some steam in your direction - but, I don't know, I am in fear of ever speaking a bad word of this person. I think it'd break my heart.

You've really done a number on me, though. With only a few words.

[gingerhaole]

Whoever, whatever you want to talk about, it's completely okay. It's important to be able to talk to somebody about shit that bothers you, or it just continues to bother you. Maybe if you talk about it, a little discussion might help you to not feel so hurt or harbor resentment.

I know I can be pretty terrible to deal with sometimes, and I tend to bite real hard when I'm angry, but it's kind of impossible for me to stop loving my friends, even when I don't know what to say to them for a while.

What was that line I love... Would you run to me if somebody hurt you, even if that somebody was me?

[lingerinthedark]

You just, I never wanted to disappoint you - and the thought that I had, well, it got to me. And for something that was so huge - where do you start to talk about that? At times, it's better to let sleeping dogs lie.

Maybe, yes, I think I'll send you an email. Most of the time I'm happy to talk about whatever on here. But this new thing, it scares me. I'll email you tonight. Maybe it will make it better.

[americanxbaby]

:( :( :(

Love you, my dear. I hope everything works out.

But just remember, you don't deserve any negative influences in your life. There's only a certain extent things like this should go to...you deserve to be happy.

I'm sorry if I'm out of line.

[lingerinthedark]

You're not out of line, my love. You're beautiful, and you are only ever sticking up for me, showing that you care. And for that I could never fault you.

You're perfect.

<3

[mistaken4u]

i think i know you! haha. Dude whats with the first three entries having a big white block right down the middle?

[lingerinthedark]

I'm not doing this here. But, honestly, is the only way I could have gotten you to notice?