Feb 09, 2010 09:23
Fucks sake.
My morning in this most creative of industries has been spent arguing with a client over whether he should pay his bill.
Outstanding invoices to about £600 from a year ago, I know I should have just done small claims a while back but I am an idiot (I will be in future). His hosting expires in a few days and I've told him it doesn't get renewed unless everything outstanding is paid off immediately and he pays for renewal up-front. He argues that he cannot afford to pay for anything and he needs the website to run his company. I argue that I need to be paid for services rendered and I don't actually make anything on hosting anyway we just get charged by the hosting company. He argues cannot afford to pay for anything but he can't afford to have his website go down.
.... and so on, in a horrible loop of bad feeling and mistrust, which puts me in a great mental place for the design work I need to get the fuck on with before that client starts ringing me asking why the fuck I've not sent anything over yet because they only asked for it yesterday and it can't take more than an hour to design a logo can it? And then the other handful of clients with their completely unrealistic deadlines and budgets get on my case for the rest of the day, and they we hit 6pm and I've done nothing of use because I've spent all fucking day explaining to people that I will get nothing done until they go away and stop hassling me. Then it all starts again tomorrow.
Fuck this shit, there has to be something else I can learn to do.
[Edit]... and you know what really fucks me off? My stupid fucking head is now telling me I'm some sort of cunt for trying to make the guy pay me for stuff. What the fuck is wrong with me? Seriously, I know logically that I should not be feeling guilty but part of me just wants to renew his damn account and let him get on with it just to avoid the confrontation. When did I become suck a fucking prick.